It's all a facade.
Thursday, July 1, 2010
I know many people do not understand why I like animals so much. Especially my family. My brother loves to point out that I love animals more than humans. The first question my sister asked when I rescued a bunch of kittens: "Why did you rescue them?" And the best thing of all, my dad just fucking ordered me to get rid of Wonder.. "This is not a zoo." Well, it isn't a home either.
I can't explain it. Actually I could but you people will never understand. You won't even try to. That's what bugs me. I have to live with people who don't even TRY to understand me. Let alone talk or have fun with me. I hate it. I hate having to know my dad is overseas from my maid. I hate coming home knowing Stevie is the only one who wants me there. I hate knowing my brother doesn't like, let alone respect me much at all. I hate knowing my sister I'm an incorrigible pig. I hate knowing my dad blames me for what happened to her. I hate knowing my dad thinks I'm a failure. It hurts but I ignore the pain. I maintain the feelingless-loner persona in the house and I will continue to.
I can't wait to leave this house for good. I can't to find a job, get a place of my own and live with Stevie, a cat, a rabbit and chinchillas. I can't wait to earn enough money to throw a cheque for 30K to his face for paying for my education. I can't wait till I am officially not a part of this family.
I will find a family for Wonder, no doubt about that. I will get over it eventually but I would just like to point out one final thing: I've been crying for close to an hour now and no humans have consoled me. Stevie sat in front of me for 10 min licking my tears and is now cuddled up in my arms. Even Wonder came up to me and let me carry her for the very first time. It's just another reason why I love animals. I know some of you maybe rolling your eyes at this point but fuck you.
Revethi.
