* MANNEQUIN

Les dames.

Revethi & Ragini
All I gotta say is
I just wanna have some fun
And I'll do it until I'm done
I'm telling you
I'm just a crazy kind of girl
I'll tell it to the world
I've just begun having my fun
Inside me there's something I found
I wanna shop around
I've just begun
Don't wanna settle down

Au revoir.



Chéris.

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Bavani.
Breathe Heavy.
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Hazwani.
Jolyn.
Navin.
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Friday, June 26, 2009


To the King of Pop,
Rest In Peace.


report much.
Tuesday, June 23, 2009

Yo people!
I had a good weekend. Awesome Saturday, bittersweet Sunday. By the way, I'm eating Milo ice-cream now and it's 7.46am. It is not my fault, there's nothing else to eat! Now, do not tell MK that. :| Now I feel like puking. Erghh.

So anyway, I went to SPCA and Drumzout@Vivo on Saturday. SPCA was good as always, since Bav and Jo were there. Too bad Danny was not really, there would have been more laughs. Vik came back for a visit as well and he was bald! Haha. As most girls would know, only some guys can pull off the bald look and well, he did. If it weren't for his height, people would take him for a five year old. He looks like a little boy! Haha, cuteness. He didn't stay long though.

Jo, Bav and I left for Harbourfront. It was a long bus ride and all 3 of us loved it! You know, even if 1 of us hated long bus rides, we would have had to take the MRT. It's nice to know people enjoy them as much as me. Jo was doing her loser 2000 word essay on the bus. Lol, loser.

We went to eat at the food court near Harbourfront interchange and then made our way to Vivo. By the way, Bav and Jo should be glad they have me. They would have probably gotten lost on several occasions without me lol. So anyways, it was pure jokes all the way. We were discussing Vik's baldness when an bald, old, Chinese guy was in front of us. Bav and I did not notice him at first. We were commenting on baldness in a pretty loud voice. Jo saw him and burst into laughter. That girl will never tell us what she's laughing at because she can't control her laughter. Crazy girl lol.

We made our way to the amphitheater and we got balloons! - huge, orange ones :D Bav's balloon was deflating at a slow but steady rate and she was so upset.
Bav: Why is my balloon smaller than yours!
Jo and I pointed out to her that it might not be tied properly and it wasn't! Haha. I deflated my balloon because it's easier to transport it that way and besides, I just wanted my mosquito stick. -lol-

Guess who we saw! Thiru's band was competing. His band's faces were half black which Jo thought was cool but I didn't. I mean let's face it, they painted it black for the contrasting effect and well, let's just say some of them would have been better off if they had painted it white. Kumaran was there too. He was bald as well. Lol.

4 bands competed in the open category and the first 2 bands were well, boring basically. They opted for traditional Japanese and Chinese style which I did not appreciate. I mean, if I were to blast Aaja Nachle, the Chinese people would not be like, busting a move. It wasn't just me; Jo found it boring as well. So anyways, the third band was from an ITE. They were good. They weren't boring. The last band was Voodoo Drums and we were pleasantly shocked. They were seriously awesome. The performance was dramatic and entertaining. It had people bobbing their heads and clapping their hands to the beat. We knew then that they were the clear winners.

We went into Vivo to walk around after that. We went to Toys R' Us and our inner children totally took over our fully grown bodies. We had so much fun/laughs/jokes. We bought a colourful ball each. It's totally cute. We went to LJS after for fries-ing. We returned to Drumzout after that for the prize-giving. We were quite early so there was this acapella group performing. they weren't very entertaining so Bav and I were playing with our balls. Thiru, Kumaran, Uma and Sharania were just below us - 2 steps down. Bav was trying to be funny - she wanted to throw the ball down at them to embarrass me. She, in the end, (of course) decided not to. So she was bouncing her ball and guess what. It bounced down and bumped into Thiru. How totally classic was that. Lol.

The results were out and surprise, surprise, Voodoo won. Then I saw someone I totally didn't want to. I'm glad I managed to avoid her. Her being Sandhya. Bleagh. We left for home sweet home after that. Chat-chitted with Kumaran as I was leaving. He was smoking and he was kind of trying to hide his cigarette as he was talking to me. I don't know if he does that with everyone but I thought it was sweet because most smokers do not care that some of us, like me, totally hate it.

The moon went down and the sun came up. It was Sunday. Bittersweet sunday. I got scolded/punished by my Dad for having too big an ego -_- He totally went overboard and he knew it. He said stuff that he knows he shouldn't have. But the reason I'm not emo-ing about that is because he made up for it by financing my shopping spree later in the evening. He also agreed to buy me the N97! Woooo. These are the things I bought on my spree:
Rahhh. Spent about $150 I think? I would have bought more but I want my N97, pink Vaio and Sony Walkman. Didn't want to push it. By the way, the shampoo smells totally yummy and my hair feels nice and satin-y.

Alrites, that's the end of my long post. Kudos if u managed to read through it all.

xoxo
Revethi







i love such talk.

X says:
*my favourite
*and you beat perez

яagını To each, Her own. says:
*hahah
*because im so close to your heart
*did you laught at the sissy ex part/
*hahhaha

X says:
*haha

яagını To each, Her own. says:
*best part is, he reads it.
*lol

X says:
*i'm sure he reads your blog

яagını To each, Her own. says:
*that stalker

X says:
*omg

яagını To each, Her own. says:
*haha

X says:
*he's gonna hate me
*HATE

яagını To each, Her own. says:
*oh let him
*people hate you when they know they want to be like you but cant
*so its reasonable.

X says:
*he hates what his love loves

яagını To each, Her own. says:
*he loves a hybrid now.
*she loves dicks.
*so he's safe.

X says:
*now you should put THAT up
*i prefer such content

Your wish is my command.
REVV OUR BLOG IS COCKING UP! The picture at least! ):

die glamorous.

яagını To each, Her own. says:
*youre crazy to think i dont
*i always have. always will.
*now before my charm kills you
*get to bed.
*dont die that way
*its gross
*and unglam

X says:
*good night

яagını To each, Her own. says:
*die from my charm
*hahaha

X says:
*and tell Y(sissy ex) what you told me

яagını To each, Her own. says:
*you'll die looking beautiful.

X says:
*i love it
*he made my ego so big
*big kudos to him

яagını To each, Her own. says:
*who
*hahahah

X says:
*Y(sissy ex)

яagını To each, Her own. says:
*awww
*i hope he tells himself that a girl left him for another girl.
*every night.
*it;ll kill him slowly.
*which is good.
*hahaha

X says:
*you see. you can have sex with anyone

X says:
*but only a good conversation with a few

I can't still be in denial can I?
(:

this crazy thing called love.
Monday, June 22, 2009

My life suddenly looks like some kind of movie. It's enterataining to others but it takes a toll on me. But I can't complain can I? I asked for it in a way. Lol. So today was just like any other day. Went to work at 3pm today. I can't stand Ruma's "call whenever I want" atttitude. Still have to put up with it. The officer called again to check on me. I told him i'm still alive and kicking and there's nothing wrong with me. He didn't try to contact me so I'll be alright. Jo spoke to me just now. He says he can see i'm not going to slip out of this so easily. Good girls always like bad boys. So yeah, I may not get over this but it will just add on to the list of things I'll never be able to get over. I'm perfectly alright with not getting over some things in life. Afterall, we all have to move on in some way or another. All i'm trying to say is that it's okay to live with memories as long as you know what you really want in the end. What i really want in the end? I just want to be happy. I don't have to be rich, have a handsome man at my side 247 or a flippin career. Just to be contented will do.
Everyone's having problems. Seems like all the people around me are having a hard time with their relationships. Even those who think they have the perfect relationship are somehow unhappy and they know it. I'm not going to take a jibe at you guys or attempt to make you ponder but are your relationships that perfect? Really, is all you want stability? What about having fun? Afterall, a couple that laughs together, stays together. Once you notice the laughter fading you know the chemistry isn't as powerful. Then, everyone would be breaking up. Right? Wrong. I've seen couples who are still laughing together after 25years or being together. An example closer to my context would be Vinod and Theviya. Yeah sure they have their fights but they're always laughing and all. It makes you wonder how they do it after being together for 6 years. It's the true measure of happiness i tell you. When i was in hospital, my doctors said i had very strong laugh lines and asked me if i wanted them to alter it during the operation. I'm glad i said no. Because at least now i know that i've had my fair share of laughter. With those laughs i have with me memories, both good and bad, to take me through life.The good memories to remind me that life can get so good and the bad ones to remind me that no matter how bad it gets, it can always get worse. Lol. So to everyone who thinks that life's giving them hell, think again. If life gives you lemons, make lemonade. Make do with it because that's what living life is all about. You do with what you have, you get up when you fall and you cry to heal. To my dear girls, you know who you are. I want you to be the happiest you can be. At least, pretend to be happy because eventually you'll become what you tell yourself you are. I love you girls so much that i want you to brave the storm that heads your way. Whether it's love, family or just life, give it your best shot. Don't get worked up. Just live it. Sometimes, it's not so bad to be like me. Just sometimes. Keep telling yourself you're happy to be who you are and to have what you have. Afterall, what can be better than having Ragini in your lives you idiots? HAHA! Okay i'm going to go off before all my lovelies come after me for being such an idiot. Disregard whatever i have written above because in the end, what matters is that we love each other. We'll always have each others' backs. Always.
LoveLots,
Ragini (:

15minutes and father's day.
Sunday, June 21, 2009

I went down to meet him and we stayed for 15 minutes. Nope, we didn't DO anything. Just sat down and then, he got a call to inform he had to go off for a fight. He got all serious and insisted on taking me back. Of course, me being the total brat that i am with men, got angry and stomped off. He messaged me later, asking if i was angry. I blatantly lied. "No." And he said, " Be honest.." So i replied yes. Then he said please try and understand. So now he'll be meeting me after work tomorrow. This relationship, is a gone case.
Jo just called and we talked a while. I don't understand why i get along so weel with him and Vinod. I miss Vinod and Theviya! It was so much more fun hanging out with all of them as a group. Oh well. Jo was just telling me about some haunted house along Cluney road, near Serene centre. Anyone with details on the place let me know okay? I need some adventure in my mundane life.
I have to be up by 7am to get ready for Vanitha's function at 10. Why so early? Because i'm a mess. My hair's all frizzy and that's going to take me an hour to settle. I have yet to iron my suit. Another 20minutes. Bathe and get dressed, at least 45minutes. Have to be at Vee's place by like 930 latest so that my uncle can drop us off at Pioneer. It's so freaking far away, I'm so glad he's sending us. After that it's off to work for me. I'll be working from about 3pm to 830 pm later. Hopefully i don't melt in my suit. And then i realised one more thing, I can't be doing something in a Punjabi suit. Totally ruins the image. So i'll just have to abstain from killing my body tomorrow. Like that's even possible? And no i'm not talking about sex so stop being a perv.
Father's day! Got my dad an mp3 player. It's the pretty little stone one from Samsung! Could have got him a better one but the thing is, this one seems pretty easy to use. It's small and light and totally fuss free. Came back and loaded all his favourite songs into it and then Hariharan wrapped it up. My mum got him a Bruan Buffel Wallet. I love the smell of untouched leather!
So that's pretty much my life for today. I don't know if it's getting boring/dangerous/interesting but it's certainly going down the drain.
Jalsa just called. He's in some kind of trouble. As much as i would like to help my boyfriend, I don't think there's anything i can do if he's out in some alley hiding from the cops. I just don't see why i'm attracted to him. I just don't see it.
Alright guys, Saturday got swallowed i swear. I hate Sundays but it's here AGAIN so yeah, have a good Sunday everyone.
LoveLots,
Ragini(:

P.S. My body is so warm right now. 40degrees and i feel perfectly fine. Even Jalsa's skin felt like marble to me. Am i dying? Or just experiencing Hell in advance?

I TOLD YOU SO!
Saturday, June 20, 2009

I don't have the first option anymore. Lol. Vanitha, this thing with my Jalsa Mannan might work ouy. My theme song should be The Jalsa Jalsa from Villu or something.
Plans? Watch Thiruda Thiruda and eat the peaches i requested with whipped cream and lotsa ice cream soda and Lay's to go with it and well, eventually knock out.
Now, does this sound better?
(:

90s!
Friday, June 19, 2009

One thing about growing up in the early 90s, we had good tamil movies. I'm on a quest to look for all my favourite 90s movies and at the top of that list are Thiruda Thiruda and Gentlemen! I'm itching to watch both! Haha. Amazing movies with even better music! Generally, movies from that era could be watched and re-watched! And the songs were so good. All these stupid new movies are pass on like they never happened after a month or so. And the songs just get worse. At least the older songs actually consisted of real words and not words like Jalsa and Sarakku and God knows what else. I gave those two words as examples because I've been hearing them so much lately. Quote Prasad: Dei don't disturb da. I'm jalsa-ing with my darling"
Yeah. Normal speech apparently. Haha! I've warned him not to call me Sarakku again because it's downright disgusting. Okay maybe you take it as we make you high like alcohol but HELLO, some respect please? He's my Jalsa Mannan. Sounds stupid enough? (: He thinks i'm this super innocent goody-two-shoes and he's the villain cum gangster who'll be there to save me. Which, is kinda true actually.
Btw, Congrats Revv and i hope everything goes well for you.
I'm still waiting for the SIA interview to turn up. Hopefully in September so that i can escape my state of limbo. Stupid A-Levels.
So today was really boring and absolutely tiring. I had plans to come back at 330pm and sleep for a while but Siti came to work and she wasn't feeling well so i covered for her till 830pm! So I spent all my time talking to Vee and Van until my battery died. Then i did some ab workout at the back of the shop to kill time. Good to know that my abs have yet to die from my sheer laziness. By the way, don't mistake me for some exercise freak. My abs are from dancing in my JC days as well as PE and Ballet. So they're slowly disappearing. This is my first attempt to revive them. So, something big happened at the shop today. This mixed lady, Chindian i suppose, came in and started browsing. Then she was like "Girl, you're mix ah?" And then i was like " Huh, no lah Aunty(mistake number one). I'm not a Hybrid(mistake number two). Just plain weird looking(mistake number three)." Then she stared. And then she pulled a face. And then she retaliated. She made so much of noise! Like saying that i offended her and all. Technically I should be the one who's making a scene because i have such big eyes and the woman said i looked mixed. Are you supposed to be happy when people tell you that you look like a hybrid? Seriously. Stupid. Other than HER, my day was alright. I did my ballet exercises after so freaking long and my muscles are suddenly taking longer to warm up. So i decided it;s better to do a routine and then follow up twice to warm the muscles up faster. Danced to Thi thi thiththikkum Thi from Thiruda Thiruda. Ballet infused with indian music looks beautiful by the way. Like absolutely graceful and not weird at all. So i've done my workout for the day. Now to do it everyday to tone the tummy. I need to have a flat stomach again by next Sunday for my cousin's wedding! The saree is so soft and thin that everything seems to show. How terrible. By the way, my saree's this pretty peach/pink colour with very fine embroidery. Absolutely in love with it. Will take a picture of the whole thing after i collect the blouse on Monday. Right now, the focus is on Vanitha's sister's ceremony! And i haven't founf anything to wear! I can't wear a saree cause i have to go to work right after and all my suits dont seem fitting enough. Hopefully i can find something in time. Alright you guys. I'm bored and i've run out of interesting things to say. By the way, i did a little experiment today with Vaseline and now it's my must have wherever i am. Try rubbing some Vaseline over your eyelids to create this super sleek effect! It shines and it gives this impression that you have very strong lid lines. Even makes your eyes seem a little deeper. Rub Vaseline along your ab outline and see your abs stand out 3times better. Oh and rub it along your calf muscles too. I know how many of you might go and try this out but please keep in mind that i'm probably reading your blog and looking at all those self-loving pictures you take of yourselves so if i notice the trick then I'm going to make some comments. Haha. Okay okay i'm going off. Have a good weekend everyone!
LoveLots,
Ragini(:

BSc (:

Say hello to the future student who's going to graduate from CQU(Central Queensland University) with a BSc in Biomedical Science in 34 months yo! (: I might then go on to do final year Medicine in NUS and maybe, just maybe, become a forensic scientist after all (: SCREW YOU MOTHEREFFING A-LEVELS! Well, I'm technically not in yet but Brian said I have a very good chance since I'm an A-level grad as apposed to the other Polytechnic grad applicants. Wooo :D I'm doing the course in Singapore but will graduate from Australia. I might do some of my modules in Aussie but we'll see (:
xoxo
Revethi

Soleil vs Lune. A conversation.


The beauty of the Moon and the vibrancy of the Sun

Versus

The rest of the universe.

By the both of us.


Lune says:

*my focus is always on you, like the moon to earth

*i'm not good at analogies either


Soleil says:

*hahaha

*like the earth to the sun

*we can do without the beauty of the moon

*but not without the warmth of the sun

*my analogies arent so bad


Lune says:

*but the moon's prettier

*and the sun makes you cry


Soleil says:

*the sun's more vibrant

*i swear, youre like the moon and Im like the sun,


Lune says:

*nah

*i just want to be your moon

*i love the moon

*vennila.

*haha


Soleil says:

*hahah

*no really

*listen to this

*youre like the moon..

*vain, beautiful, subtle..

*arrogant and still welcoming..

*the night doesnt look the same without you..

*lets say the world is the night

*hahah

*no kidding

*Im not mocking you


Lune says:

*okay


Soleil says:

*sorry

*anyway miss moon

*miss luna


Lune says:

*wait i'll finish you


Soleil says:

*hahah

*no no

*let me finish

*everyone loves the moon

*but they moon doesn’t love everyone

*she's vain

*and haughty

*all because she's up there

*tsk tsk

*all men want women like the moon

*what else..

*the moon is gentle!

*and Im done..


Lune says:

*yeah you forgot one last thing


Soleil says:

* you

*yes?


Lune says:

*the moon only shows her true self to some

*and the moon always showers on you


Soleil says:

*(:


Lune says:

*go on with the sun


Soleil says:

*the sun is me. i cant go on abt myself.

*you said the sun makes you cry.


Lune says:

*okay

*i will


Soleil says:

*and she does.

*haha

*she makes everyone cry

*go on.


Lune says:

*i can try at least

*the sun's got all the spotlight on her

*even though she tries to share

*the sun's a natural beauty, with all her grace


Soleil says:

*haha grace? not bad.

*and?

*i always thought the sun was harsh and rash


Lune says:

*she makes even your darkest moments seem hopeful

*for something better to come

*but even though she promises so much love

*she fails to deliver, cause everyone wants her

*but she never settles down

*so she goes down every night for her own sanity, breaking hearts on the way

*only to turn up the next morning, and everthing starts again

*not bad huh?

*what do you think miss sunshine

*little miss sunshine


Soleil says:

*awesome.




LoveLots(:


Faces!
Thursday, June 18, 2009

I think i should start putting faces to the people i'm always going on and on about. I should. But i'm not going to. Hahah! Later la. I'm way to lazy to for now. There's a fire somewhere around Novena. The Alarms are blaring from somewhere around TTSH! We just watched the fire engines and police cars rushing down! So much of action for one night i tell you. This is what 1/3 had to say about the fire:

archana says:
*hey

яagını To each, Her own. says:
*helloo
*there's a fire somewhere in novena

archana says:
*how come??

яagını To each, Her own. says:
*dont know
*the alarm was so loud!

archana says:
*hahahaha
*i think i walked pass the place
*and the bulding couldnt take it
*so lite off on fire
*cus i set a very high heat
*huy

яagını To each, Her own. says:
*you, need to sleep.

-_-

Anywayyyyyyy, I had a very very dramatic 24hrs. From 1o3opm to now even. From the whole MC frenzy(not going to talk about it in case i get sued) to meeting everyone at Serangoon afterwards. There were about 8 of us i think, Thivya, Kalai, Vinod, Prasad, Anand, Sara, Jo and me! The guys and Thivya were all drinking so me and Kalai started talking between ourselves. She's on attachment at OCBC and we were talking about my loan and stuff. At least we weren't bored. Wait that's not even possible because no one gets bored around these people. They're so loud! Prasad got all drunk and well, told me things. Flatterring, shocking and left me blushing. Haha. So yeah, things happened and around 4, Jo and Prasad followed me home in a cab. I must say i'm feeling 10 times more light headed now. Figure out whar happened in between everyone because only the Vs know everything. Go bug them go. Lol. It's not that i don't want to type it out here but it's pretty personal? If things get ugly i'd put it here no doubt. So wait till it gets juicy or something.
Today, Was a bad day. I got up a little flustered and all. Washed my hair(bad move) despite knowing it was going to be all frizzy and wavy. I had to lug so much with me to work! My straightner, the creams and Vaseline! I left the house with a coffee and no make-up! This is what happens when you sleep at 7am and wake up at 9am. It's not like i had a choice. I just wasn't sleepy. Which was really weird cause when i was in Serangoon all i wanted was to go home and sleep. And i think i'm falling sick. I hate falling sick. Sharanya's wallet got knicked today. She was cursing the thief non-stop. He's going to have a very slow and painful and torturous(hopefully) death. Friday is here and that marks the beginning of a weekend! Although for those of you on your June hols won't see a difference. BYE!
LoveLots.
Ragini(:

Vanitha and some random clicks!
Wednesday, June 17, 2009

Vanitha(:

Vanitha says:
*you're so evil to people you love
*and you like being that
*but you expect someone else to treat you differently?

яagını To each, Her own. says:
*hey im not evil ok
*am i evil to you?
*i just make you get me a lot of food
*unless thats considered evil.
*hardly.

Vanitha says:
*thats also hardly a part of what you make me do

яagını To each, Her own. says:
*you make it sound like some sort of chore to be friends with me you kno
*w

Vanitha says:
*you make me listen to your crappy crushes, make me a victim of your exes envy and you tell me this horrible sex stories

яagını To each, Her own. says:
*hahahhaha

If anyone listened to my bullshit as much as you did, they'd be dead. You're not the "sidekick of the infamous Ragini" you idiot. You make my life so much more meaningful and of course, dramatic. You're very much loved.


PHOTOS(:

At the maid agency yesterday!

Fooling around in mustafa!

Jo on the Aprilla!

Prasad on the Aprilla!

At the maid agency again!

Reka and i pigging out at AB as usual.

BYE(:

Who's she kidding?
Tuesday, June 16, 2009

Hello everyone! I've refreshed my mind with some sleep, Which i was gravely lacking due to my constant late nights out with everyone else. So, i've been out a lot. I feel like some person wasting my life but at the same time i'm having a good time. Good times are always followed by some boring, redundant ones. The other day, I blogged about an attempt to change my ways. It took me from that night to about 5 minutes ago to realise that hell, I can't change to save myself. If i did, then i'd be boring. Who cares if you think i'm boring? It's worse when I start thinking I'm boring! Besides, my attempt to change has failed miserably(understatement totally) so I'm not interested in trying again. This, is the beginning of a new beginning. Is there even such a thing?
The other day on my way to work, 2 teenagers boarded the 980 I was on. Clearly siblings and they were accompanied by their father. The girl was holding this booklet from the Girls' Home and she continued to scribble some words in the blank spaces provided. Being human and nosy, i managed to read one question of the booklet. "What would you do if the Judge gives you another chance?"
It was enough to tell me a lot of things as well as give me an explanation behind their father's sad face. I was pretty ashamed of being so nosy so i turned away and shifted my focus back to my music. Then the most annoying thing happened. This Cheenafied couple beside me started throwing glances at the kids. Like their(kids) problems were suddenly front page tabloid. They just stared! I had half the mind to ask them to get a grip and wash their judging brains with a dettol and bleach concoction because clearly, one anti-bacterial formula isn't enough.
Work's been so boring lately. I have no interest in working there already. Whoever said boutiques were a cool place to work in. There's a camera watching me all the time, there are very ANNOYING new tamilans working at HomeFix and Siti isn't as sweet as she used to be. I mean suddenly they start picking in everything i do. I know i haven't been the superfast person i was before but i'm really much slower after the op. And definately much more lazy. It's probably because i've been lazing around after my op and i haven't had the chance to start running again! The only form of exercise i managed to get recently was going cycling with Vinod, Prasad and Jo. Jo seems to think that I'm some sort of alien because i don't perspire. I am not lying. Not at all. You can ask everyone who knows me well enough. I come back from my 2.4km runs with no sweat, literally. Let's just say, you brush your hands along my arms after I finish x-country's 3.2km, you'd think i smeared powder all over my arms. Not kidding. Haha. So i'm some sort of strange creature according to them because they walked me back yest and i was jumping and running around with Jo's cap tightly on my head with my fringe hanging loose(attempting to break into a sweat) all the way from Serangoon to Farrer Park and still smelling like i just came out from my shower. I know it's some kind of medical condition but it's working in my favour you see. Because i smell good all the time, there's no pressure of BO problems in the scorching heat! Okay enough of my special alien abilities. Prasad just called and asked me to head down to Dhivya's place to give her a surprise but i can't since i came back at 330am this morning. I don't see why my parents yell at me because I'm really independent? Since I was in primary school actually. They refuse to give me the housekeys. My mum even accused me of taking some money from somewhere i didn't even know existed. Not like i care for anything like that anymore. These days, fun seems to be free and easy. I'm broke as hell because i shopped so much at the beginning of the month. But then again, money will come and go. So mine's gone. I'm planning to switch jobs. I have to diversify. Need to start saving more for uni and this job is giving me peanuts. Besides, i don't like snooty north indians and indian expats who walk in and act all " Oh i can afford this but you can't cause you're like working here". Seriously. And of course there are the munjens who come in and comment on EVERYTHING and about how this is too heavy and that is too shiny. If you have so much to say then stop buying indian stuff because they look so pretty and sexy. They look pretty and sexy on the people who are meant to wear em. They're novelty to you and everyday to us so quit complaining lurh. And you know what's the worst part of this job? Having to tolerate them CONSTANTLY nagging at you. I'm contemplating on leaving this job but Ruma said full time pay will come in about 2 months? Like the months leading up to Deepavali. That would make me a little better off but even that's unstable you see. With the current shit economy, people might downgrade from Ruma's to Tekka or something. Seriously paying $400 for a suit in the peak period is just NOT worth it anymore! Especially in current times! But then again, the suits look amazing. The moment you step into the shop and browse the collection, anything from Tekka will seem cheapskate. That worries me a lot actually. Because i'm never fussy about what i buy but now i automatically see the difference whether i wish to or not.
I finally spoke to Yamunah today. We've been like communicating to FB comments and all and this is the first time i've actually spoken to her properly. She's seems amazingly interesting and extremely crafty! Something you don't find in girls these days. Either ways, i'm glad i spoke to her because i've found another interesting individual. She has a blogshop where she sells handmade cards and flowers! http://www.prettyhandmadecards.blogspot.com So check her out for pretty, personalised presents!
I just thought about running out of the house and taking the keys with me but i decided against it within the very same minute.
Alright guys! I'm off to watch a movie and then to bed because i have WORK tomorrow. Mid-week is here. It's mid June too. Damn time flies. Good night babies.
LoveLots,
Ragini(:

Dear Ragini
Saturday, June 13, 2009

It sucks for me to communicate with you through the blog but I wanna tell you stuff that I can't SMS to you, because it's too long and I hardly see you on MSN so, here it is.
Firstly, I have no idea what incidents have occurred to make you feel like you do but you have outrageous opinions about yourself. You think that there's something wrong with you; You're immature; You're a backstabber; You're a bitch; You're a jealous monster; You're weird. I'm sure there's more but seriously? SERIOUSLY? You truly believe you're all that, because I for one, do not.
You think you're immature but I've seen the way you took responsibility when your parents were in Thailand. YOU took charge. YOU took care of your siblings. YOU kept your house clean. Amidst all that YOU had to deal with school. Do you seriously think an immature person would have been able to pull that off? Rags, you have tons of maturity in you. Sure, you act crazy/childish sometimes but that's just the kind of person you are and there's absolutely nothing wrong with that.
Backstabbing & bitching. Everyone does it. I do it and you do it, but you get shit for it, whilst I don't, because you have the guts to do it openly or come clean after you've done it. That makes you a better person, Rags.
As for jealousy.. You wouldn't be human without it. Everyone in this world is always wanting something. Why do you reproach yourself for something like that?
So I don't care what you've been doing or what has been happening to you. It doesn't change the kind of person you are: Straightforward, truthful, responsible and the best of all, you're an amazing friend. I mean, just see what you did at the tagboard.
One last thing. In a few years time, I want to see you as a Singapore girl, because I know that's what you want to be and that's what I want you to be. Stop wanting to lead the 'normal' life. Knowing you, you'd probably die of boredom.
Love,
Revethi

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HYF8cUlbs3I&feature=related - For you, Rags.
Watch that in a friendship way- I ain't lesbian :|

proud to be, unhappy?

I'm throughly unhappy with my life and myself. Through and through. I know no one can make me feel better and i don't seem to mind that anymore. Sometimes it feels like i'm some sort of mental patient. Like the kind that can't seem to figure out what's wrong with her. Vanitha told me just now that i don't deserve this and that i should let it go. She spent so much of time telling me despite knowing at i'll come crying back again and again and again. But as usual, I don't listen. Maybe I've offended her and i'm sorry Vanitha. I'm just as sorry Vithya because you try just as hard to keep me out of trouble but it just never seems to work ah. It's not them. It's all me. I don't understand the concept of living life the way the generations before have lived. I don't understand how i'm supposed to mature physically and emotionally. I don't think i'll ever get out of this phase actually. Someone once told me that they'd die if they heard things about themselves the way i did. But i'm still here? I don't feel any shame. No remorse. I feel hurt over insignificant things and people. Hurt= hurt to the ego. I'm always unhappy to have what i have. I question myself about the way i look,act or feel. The worst part of it all? I get jealous. Of everyone, everything. I get jealous because i want what they have. Know the saying, having everything but feeling like you have nothing? It's like i know and then i feel two totally opposing things. You know how Vithya and Vanitha always tell me I'm such a beautiful person? They're the only ones who do. Somehow no one else says things like that too me. Which is why no matter how much friction i have with these two, i tend to try to ease them quickly because i don't want to lose the only people who pamper my inflating ego. Although with Vanitha i take a little longer because the insulting has to die down first. Lol. But yeah, back to the point. She went off saying she felt sad for me. No one has ever said that to me. And now it's got me thinking. Maybe i'll go with the norm for once? Have a stable boyfriend, work and then hang out with friends. Look forward to university or something. I know it seems like something i'll never end up doing but i think i'll put my mind to it this time. I can try right? No harm trying to be normal? Why let drama come looking for you when you can end it all and lead a simple little life? What's the point of being some backstabbing bitch(which i am and you all know it so please dont pretend like you don't) and creating chaos everywhere? Being interesting and intriguing is no longer important. What's important is that people believe in you. As of now, i dont think anyone does and it's not surprising either. Haha. In any case, if anyone feels like talking to me after this post, please call/sms/msn with me. I could use the company. For someone with heck a lot of superficial friends and a small handful of real ones, i'm surprisingly lonely. I know it may seem like a joke to people when i say i want to be a little less weird and more normal but give me a chance man! I've been some bitch my whole life, i need time to become human. Haha! Okay now i'm just making a joke out of myself. Sorry Shanthini for dragging you into the drama on my blog. I've been a big bitch to you too btw and you know it. Try not to be so sweet to me. It might be good for you because i never repay kindness with kindness. The 2 Vs, stop sounding like you're giving up on me pleaseeeeeee! I'd feel lost if you guys didn't check up on me! It's a role reversal in our case you know. The teenagers advise the 20yr old on how she should handle her life. They can write a book about taming young adults. Lol. And i think Vanitha went offline because she was pissed at me. I hope you aren't! Really. I'll try to listen this time okay? I really will. My head's so heavy now. It's supposed to be light and clear. But it isn't. I'm off to start my long long weekend. Please God, make everything fall in place. By the way, the worst thing that happened to me this week was Jayam Ravi's wedding. Next thing you know they'll be saying Johnny Depp is gay or something. Okay okay i'm ranting. You know, ranting wouldn't be wrong, if your blog wasn't scrutinized all the freaking time. And Revethi, I totally share your views. Ronaldo is going to be another Becks. Kaka's going over to Real too. Now they like have a dream team or something. Oh wait, there can only be one dream team. Manchester United. Ronaldo leaving ManUtd will be the same as Beckham's departure. Insignificant after a few days. Do you think if Fergie felt like Ronaldo was such a big asset to the team, he would have let him go for 80million? It's because Fergie knows better players will come. They always do. He's being practical while Ronaldo is ruining it for himself. Beckham's pulling through with his Armani underwear commercials. Soon it'll be Ronaldo finding his fame fading. Which will be sad, because players who stay with Man Utd live forever. Just one of the perks of being loyal to a team that win or lose, always captures hearts. Night everyone!
LoveLots,
Ragini(: