Revethi & Ragini
All I gotta say is
I just wanna have some fun
And I'll do it until I'm done
I'm telling you
I'm just a crazy kind of girl
I'll tell it to the world
I've just begun having my fun
Inside me there's something I found
I wanna shop around
I've just begun
Don't wanna settle down





Anitha.
Ann.
Bavani.
Breathe Heavy.
Britney Spears.
Gaya.
Hazwani.
Jolyn.
Navin.
Vithya.


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So I decided to give one of the hair removal creams a try and I hated it for a couple of reasons. ONE. After a cycle of applying the cream, waiting 3 minutes and washing the cream off in a circular motion did not remove all the hair so I had patches of hair on my arm so I had to repeat the process all over again. Such a waste of time. I was waiting to wash my hair and I was paranoid about getting bald so I decided not to touch my hair until all the crema was off. TWO. IT STANK. It stank like chemical. It was the choking kinda smell. Jasmine fragrance, my ass. THREE. I'm gonna give it credit, it eventually removed all the hair on my arms but all my scars are nakedly visible now. I have scars I didn't know I had thanks to certain doggies and kitties. FOUR. I feel obliged to do it my legs now cuz I don't match. FIVE. I actually zoomed in into one of the removed hair with my naked eye and I swear I saw some of my flesh at the end of it. The suckers literally, though painlessly, rip the hair from the follicles. Not such a fan of it. SIX... Well, there's no six. I got a little carried away. Bye now.

Revethi

I finally buckled down and gave her a piece of my mind. She replied pinpointing that she did not trust me enough to tell me the truth. 2 years of thinking she's one of my closest friends and this is what I get. She apaarently was testing if she could trust me. It was a like a huge slap in my face. It got me thinking if I did anything to her to make her think that and guess what, I couldn't think of anything. My close friends will know I trust people easily. I usually let my brain dominate my heart but with my close friends, the heart always conquers the brain. When she told me that crap of a story, my brain knew there and then that it was all lies. My heart on the other hand strongly believed that she wouldn't lie to me because she is one of my best friends. Eventually I got to confirm that that story was indeed a lie and I ended up feeling like a fool. She said the story was the only lie she had told me and that she was "amazed how quickly I beleved what I heard." My dear, one lie is all it takes to shatter one's trust. It might be the only lie you've told me (which I seriously doubt, tbh) but guess what, that is enough to get me thinking that everything else you've said are lies. I'm not gonna say good luck or that I hope everything in your life goes well for you. I know you did and I don't know if you even meant it. I know you believe in karma and all I have to say to you is I hope karma comes back to bite your pretty little ass.


This post was actually supposed to be a thank you post for Jolyn. She is one of the people in my life who know me better than I think they do. Reading her blog made me realise it's friends like her who actually matter. And you know what Jo, you are totally in. Once we can support ourselves, we shall buy a pretty little house and have our own little animal farm with Stevie and Alfred at the helm :D I know I'm not that good with my words but I think you know how much you mean to me and there are not enough words in the world so I'm not even going to try. Love you many many :))

Revethi

Damn, I have the best friends. I'm not just saying that. I know everyone thinks they have the best of friends but hell I have THE best friends. I have the best pet as well. I know my life can suck sometimes but I would never trade it for another because I can't fucking imagine going through life without you people ♥ :)

I am kind of proud of myself today. I totally freaked when I heard Sharmila was not coming into work today. I didn't know if I could handle all the admin work and the PHONECALLS. Have I told anyone I am terrible with the phone. I get very conscious and say things without thinking. It's like my brain detaches itself from my vocal nerve cells everytime I pick up the phone. This is one of the reason why I don't do long phone calls. I don't talk to people on the phone for hours and hours. Anyway, the point is nothing went wrong today! I handled the phone calls, the appointments, the data inputs and the random stares I get from people walking by. So yes, yayy me! :D

Oh, and I have found another perk of baking - getting your boss to like you. Have I mentioned Dierdre scares me? That fear totally escalated after I started working at SPCA. Don't ask me why. She's just that type.. And I'm.. that type. BUT. She complimented me twice today about the cake I baked for Sharmila last week. That made my fear disappear a little. My heart still pounds like a pound cake whenever she walks past.

What else, what else. Well, nothing much else. I can't wait to get my first pay.. Is it totally bad to start planning how you're gonna spend youe salary even before you get it?.. Probably, but screw it. SHOES SHOES SHOES.

Revethi


I may not have personally done so but a ginormous thank you to everyone who messaged, called and commented on FB. They really mean a lot to me and I'm feeling much better now thanks to the lot of you:

XueTing- Fated Friend! It's been ages since we last spoke but your comment means so much to me. Thankyou alotta and catch up session soon yea! :)

Jolene- You are totally right. I have amazing friends who understand me and thta's all I need right now :) Thankyou.

Hazwani, Sylvia, Azirah and Mojo- I don't even know where to begin. Everytime I'm feeling down you guys do the best job of cheering me up. I love your random "I love you" messages. They never fail to put a smile in my face. I don't know if I've told you this but you guys have been one of my best friends for the longest time and I don't know what I'll do without you girls! I know I don't say this enough, but I love you guys :) Oh and Hilmi, thanks for your comment too :))

Bav- reading your blog made me cry like a baby. I really appreciate the fact that you took time out to write that out for me.

Jo- thanks for finding another home for Wonder. It maybe silly but remember that message you sent saying "What are friends for?" Don't know why but my heart kinda melted when I read that.

Ann- I'm really sorry about Eet again. I feel terrible. I'll continue looking for a suitable person to take care of him.

Bavani, Jo & Ann- I know I've had Wonder for less than a week but I've fallen in love with her in that short time and giving her up is not going to be easy. I also know that noone can relate more to me than you guys.

So yes. Thanks to all you and Stevie of course for making me feel that much better. Much love from me :)

Revethi

I know many people do not understand why I like animals so much. Especially my family. My brother loves to point out that I love animals more than humans. The first question my sister asked when I rescued a bunch of kittens: "Why did you rescue them?" And the best thing of all, my dad just fucking ordered me to get rid of Wonder.. "This is not a zoo." Well, it isn't a home either.

I can't explain it. Actually I could but you people will never understand. You won't even try to. That's what bugs me. I have to live with people who don't even TRY to understand me. Let alone talk or have fun with me. I hate it. I hate having to know my dad is overseas from my maid. I hate coming home knowing Stevie is the only one who wants me there. I hate knowing my brother doesn't like, let alone respect me much at all. I hate knowing my sister I'm an incorrigible pig. I hate knowing my dad blames me for what happened to her. I hate knowing my dad thinks I'm a failure. It hurts but I ignore the pain. I maintain the feelingless-loner persona in the house and I will continue to.

I can't wait to leave this house for good. I can't to find a job, get a place of my own and live with Stevie, a cat, a rabbit and chinchillas. I can't wait to earn enough money to throw a cheque for 30K to his face for paying for my education. I can't wait till I am officially not a part of this family.

I will find a family for Wonder, no doubt about that. I will get over it eventually but I would just like to point out one final thing: I've been crying for close to an hour now and no humans have consoled me. Stevie sat in front of me for 10 min licking my tears and is now cuddled up in my arms. Even Wonder came up to me and let me carry her for the very first time. It's just another reason why I love animals. I know some of you maybe rolling your eyes at this point but fuck you.

Revethi.