put it on high.
Monday, September 28, 2009
Slow, slow, painfully slow. That's how life is at the moment.
School's starting soon and I can't help but feel apprehensive.
I've only sent out 2 SMSes today. I feel somewhat liberated yet out-of-touch without a proper phone.
I'm getting a new phone sometime this week. Most probably my old 5800. Wouldn't want Ragini's one to feel too lonely.
I miss my animals.
I got assigned to shelter duty this Sunday for Paws n Purrs. Awesomeness.
I love SPCA. I feel awesome when I'm there. I don't have to dress-up or be mindful of how I appear. I usually wear capris and a shirt with my overused pair of Crocs. My hair will be all frizzy and tied up in a bun. I know I look like crap but hell, it feels good. It feels good because noone cares. The animals sure as hell don't. This allows me to truly be myself there. I don't have to pretend to like something I don't. I don't have to do something I don't want to do. I don't feel inferior or superior. Everyone is treated equally. Everyone is friendly with one another. Of course there are a select few idiots who are well, idiots. I've met people that I know will see through me for as long as I live. Printing that volunteer form was probably the best thing I've done in my entire life. The reason why I became a volunteer is simply because I had time to kill. 8 months to be precise after my A levels. Let's face it, it's somewhat a selfish reason. When people ask me that and I answer them, they go 'Pfft, is that all?' or 'Oh, no wonder.' Noone has ever asked me why I still am a volunteer though. If anyone had bothered asking me that, I would tell them that it's because the animals have made a bigger impact on my life than any humans; They have changed me for the better; They have cheered me up when I was down; They keep me rooted to the ground; They teach me responsibility, compassion and humility; And for that, I owe them everything I got.
xx Revethi
what i would really like, is to punch you.
Monday, September 21, 2009
Honestly I know I haven't blogged in the longest time ever but wtf. I work work work the whole damn day, then I get that fella to send me home and I always go to bed more frustrated than how frustrated I was getting up at 8.30am that morning. So here, i've come to say, fuck you Vijay. I don't ever want to be nice to you again. Sure you're older and your temper's to be feared. I fear you honestly. So much that I literally get a fever standing around you these days. What frustrates me more is that my temper is as bad as yours and I can't fucking show it because you might just fucking kill me. Like last night I felt like slapping you but I knew I couldn't run as fast as you. My face will probably break the moment your hand comes into contact with it. Fuck. I'm trying so damn hard with you but I feel like I'm going no where. You told me once that I should leave a message if I want to leave you. Last night you asked me if I was going to leave you that message cause I accidently broke your helmet. Well guess what? I too know how to play mind games. I'm pretty experienced with mind games despite my age. I started my game the moment you asked me what my name was under block 175 that Wednesday we met. Oh btw everyone, I broke his helmet by accident yesterday. Cause he yelled, I freaked and dropped it. I dropped it and it broke. That crap is supposed to withstand an accident? Murale was right. I'm paying to get my death in the form of a drivers' license. All I can say now is, go to hell man. Seriously. I have had enough of being little miss sunshine for you. I play rough so I hope you like the ride that's coming. On a happier note, I made new friends today. Smoking corner buddies rather. His name is Chang Yi. Cute fella. He's like the gang leader for the 10 or so Pizza Hut delivery boys at Thompson plaza. I'm now friends with the cleaner, the 7-11 people, the Yakun Kaya people, the laundry cum tailor and the ladies who make the best iced milo at the thompson plaza kopitiam. This is what full-time at Ruma's collection does to you. I pushed sales to the max today. Overall sales, 5K. My personal sales, 2.2K. Kept me happy till I got out for a stick 4 hours later. Oh another random and totally unbelievable thing happened. I forgot Arun's birthday. Wth is wrong with me? How easy can it be to forget the birthday of someone you were once crazy in love with? Oh wait, it's not easy. I don't even know if i forgot it genuinely or if my mind tuned itself to tell me that it doesn't matter if we made out 4 months or so ago it's still over. I think I genuinely forgot cause I woke up yesterday with a " Shit!". Told you my days are getting crappy. Logan is way to distracted. I don't even know what he's doing. One minute it's "hey beauty i miss you ):" and when I reply it's no response. I don't chase. I just keep going. Which is exactly what I'm going to do now. Classy women, don't chase. They don't show how cheap they can get and they most certainly won't be afraid about people findind out about their whereabouts/activities. I don't want guys in my life. Can I just stick with girls? Is going against the will of nature such a bad idea? Frankly, I don't give a damn. If we spend half our lives deciding on what's right and what's wrong, when are we going to get to live it? Why do we have to choose to do the right thing? Who says right has to be the one we pick? I'm going with wrong. The more wrong I do, the more free I feel. I like being free. Free to be me.
I'm so angry right now? Fuck the world.
Ragini.
flea market on the 19th!
Thursday, September 17, 2009
Hey hey guys.
There's this flea market going on this
Saturday the 19th near
Dunman food centre which is around
Joo Chiat. It's your usual straight-off-the-mill flea market. I heard there'll be a movie screening as well but that's not my point haha.
I'll be selling my bakes!
Vanilla Cupcakes, Oreo Cupcakes, Brownies, Big Fat Chocolate Chip Cookies and Meringues!
Okay, not too sure about the meringues because it depends on my mood tomorrow.
So anyway it's from
12 noon till 3pm. My booth's name is '
Rain's Cupcakes.' There's acutally a long and funny story behind that name which I'll blog about in time to come haha. In the meanwhile though, Come visit me kay? :D
Revethi
PS. If you dont know how to get there: Take 33 from Bedok interchange and alight at fare stage 6.5. Walk down Joo Chiat Road till you see it! (:
all I need is my degree.
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
Just had a good chat with Shankari. She's having a blast in Germany - really happy for her (: Her classes start today and hopefully things are stay as awesome as they are.
A couple of years ago I was determined to leave Singapore.. The temptation died down after my As for a various number of reasons.
Priya and I made this plan to leave Singapore together after she's done with poly and I get my degree. I was a bit apprehensive about it. I was afraid to leave my life here to start another one elsewhere but lately, the thought of leaving has been really appealing to me. My conversation with Shankari just moulded that appeal to determination. I'm not getting into details of why I'm leaving - I don't wanna create trouble for myself - but basically, I don't want to have a family here, I don't want to work here, I don't want to retire here and I most certainly do not want to die here.
So this is what I've promised myself - I'm getting my BioMed degree; I either get a scholarship and do my Masters overseas or in a local University; I'm getting myself out of this country. I will. I won't stop till I do.
I watched the season premiere of Supernatural yesterday. Can I say it's fucking awesome!
I've been into AC/DC, Queen and Metallica recently. Dean's influence probably.
Revethi.
life as it is.
Sunday, September 13, 2009
Hello everyone. I haven't blogged for the longest time ever. Partly because I'm never home this early. So before 11pm is a pretty big deal. I could have blogged but I really didn't know what to blog about. Life? Work? Plans? Cancer sticks? Damn. I just finished my stint with the Department of Stats Singapore. No more High street buildings and over priced lunches as well as ulu blocks and really racist Singaporeans. Honestly I think the things I saw during my house visits have affected me pretty deeply. I saw drug addicts and teenage mums struggling to keep up. It was truly terrible. And you know all those things you hear about loansharks coming after households and throwing paint at their front doors? Well all that is true. I saw quite a number of houses with paint splashed on their doors and all sorts of vulgarities scribbled all over the walls. Culture shock I swear. Vanitha always points out the Vee and I act like City Kids who live in a totally different world. I used to tell her it wasn't that way. Now, I can actually agree with her. Not saying that I live in a very posh area, but at least here people don't behave like country brutes. Honestly, when I went to Jurong East, The people were relatively nice. So were the people in Bishan. But I really had hell with AMK and Boon Lay. I'm tempted to post something but I know it'll be a serious offence for me to do so. I'll just let you figure it out. I got into the lift at this seriously deserted block somewhere in Boon Lay drive one day and there was this middle aged chinese lady already inside. The moment I got into the lift, the lady stared at me, cringed, and covered her nose and mouth. I was wearing Envy Me that day. I DO NOT perspire. It is absolutely impossible for me to smell bad. Ask anyone. I was so pissed that I actually said CB out loud when I got out. I'm rarely that unruly. And I've been in a bad mood since that day! Haha.
I want to meet all my friends but I don't think I have enough energy to. I'm pretty glad biker takes me home everynight. That's another thing that's bothering me. I can't place my finger on the exact feeling, but I do feel something for me. About him rather. I really like him. 27 but still very much young at heart. His bike, is my boyfriend. No joke. Speaking of which,my first riding practical is this Wednesday! I'm so close to getting my Kawasaki Kips! This is the bike that I want btw;
I want her in white and sprayed with flowers at one side. Haha. I want my license like, now. So anyway I think that's all I have to say. I need to get myself a patch to stop. It's about time I control it.I'm so sleepy that I've forgotten everything I've been wanting to write since like, 2 days ago. I'll blog later so you guys, Take care.
LoveLots,
Ragini
sup yall!
Friday, September 11, 2009
My first batch of cookies and cream cupcakes are in the oven; I'm eating my dinner and Stevie's barking at me for it; The only noice I hear is the hustle and bustle of the outside world. Ah, sweet.
Revethi
drama in the courtroom.
Friday, September 4, 2009
Was such a dramatic day yesterday. A number of funny/annoying/upsetting/sweet incidents happened yesterday.
I caught up with an old penpal. The last time we probably spoke was... 3 years ago? So much has changed since then. For starters, he looks so hot now as compared to before. Though he still looks as white as ghost. I never knew he was a manutd fan as well! We spent like 2 hours bitching about the ongoings of the EPL. He had more stories to share since that lucky ass lives in Manchester and has SEASON TICKETS. Pfft. I know you're reading this, Barry, so remember your promise heh.
After Barry went to sleep (It was like 2am there) I got seriously bored and went to play with Stevie. I decided to teach him to roll over so I got him lying down to roll him over. As I was doing that, he got up, barked at me and ran away. Annoying dog. Probably thought I was some idiot trying to make him do stupid stuff lol.
I was getting ready for the SPCA volunteer dinner. I was on my chair rolling around playing with Stevie and I got carried away and rolled it over my toes. I literally had to roll the chair off my toes. The pain wasn't that bad so I tried curling my toes and that's when the pain really hit me and I yelped. I actually yelped. Stevie looked so worried lol. Cute dog.
The evening was going well up until I lost my phone. Sighs. It was carelessness on my part but ugh, I wish the one who took it feels guilty. If she doesn't, I hope she loses every single hair, grows a moustache and her boobs fall plop on the ground.
Everyone was so sweet about it. Jo wanted to leave early initially but she stayed till like 9+ in the end. Gin and Dawn stayed back as well. Serena was really sweet as well - she looked through the garbage and she called me this morning to check on me and asked me about the CCTV footage. I told her that only a chinese and caucasian lady had entered the toilet after I did and she said she'll try to find out who it was. Uncle Mohan and her even told me that I could give SPCA's number to the management in case they needed to contact me but I had already given Bavani's number. Ah, sweet people. The love I have for SPCA goes well beyond the animals.
On the train ride back home, this group of annoying kids were playing and running around in a fairly crowded train and they trampled over my already paining toes. I nearly screamed. Ugh. I was limping back home when I ran into Dinesh. He listened to me bitching about what a horrible evening it has been and then walked me home.
Piper's getting adopted today. I wanted to see her off but I decided not to. I think I'd start crying again and well, she deserves a joyful/tearless adoption. Hope she is happy wherever she's going.
I'm just staying home playing Texas Hold'em. Depressing. Oh well. If my day gets any worse I'll let you guys know. Bye for now.
Revethi
vroom.
Wednesday, September 2, 2009
HELLO! It's like 4.50am and I just got home! I was supposed to be back at 12. I was on my way back. When I was walking towards my block, I saw biker boy standing under my block! Technically I saw my baby(the bike) first and I was like, what the? Then he smiled that stupid smile of his and said "The bike was so heartbroken that you didn't sit on him today so I brought him to see you." Cheesy much? Haha. So we sat near my place and talked, and talked. Seriously, when I first met him, I didn't think he was the talkng kind. It's been a week and he's made me laugh so hard and well, I love the way he laughs. Love it. I can't seem to get enough of him.
I haven't posted in the LONGEST time ever. Been to caught up trying to cover up all the remaining houses in AMK and Bishan as well as the new houses in Jurong. So far Jurong east has been good to me. I think the response is better when I go over at night instead of in the morning or something. Passed by Prema's block. Brought back some really good memories of dance and just hanging out with the girls and boys. Did the BGM slides all over again this morning. Actually the one Saba had done earlier was alright. I just thought it could look better so I played around with it a little. BGM IS TMR! I don't know why I'm feeling nervous. Sometimes, I seriously don't know how Grace does it. I salute her. Haha. Okay I'm seriously sleepy and I can't concentrate on anything that I'm typing. Have a good Wednesday!
LoveLots!
I want her in white and sprayed with flowers at one side. Haha. I want my license like, now. So anyway I think that's all I have to say. I need to get myself a patch to stop. It's about time I control it.I'm so sleepy that I've forgotten everything I've been wanting to write since like, 2 days ago. I'll blog later so you guys, Take care.