no, I wasn't hit by a bus...
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
I believe it's high time I post something on here. So here I am.. Hello.
How're you doing?
I'm fine thanks! Hows you?
I'm great!
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-Cue the awkward silence-
Ok I know you have no idea what that was. No worries, I don't either.. BUT, don't you guys hate it when conversations like that occur? If someone has to say "How are you doing?", or something along that line, he/she probably isn't a very significant part of your life. It's such a formal phrase.
So, anyway, school's been delayed till end August. I don't know if I should feel happy that I've got a longer break or sad because I've just missed school that much. For those who scoffed at that, just so you know, I have missed school. I miss having to hate to wake up early for lessons. I miss listening to annoying lecturers. I miss doing work. I miss having homework. I mean, it's great sleeping and waking up as and when I wish with no ultimate purpose/goal for the day but I've been doing that for about 8 months now and well, I'm totally sick of it. Just thinking of the fact that I'm gonna have to laze around for another month literally makes me feel sick.
I've been thinking about my mom lately. I've been seeing/hearing a lot of stuff from a lot of people about their moms, from FB status messages to everyday conversations. When the staff at SPCA innocently ask what curry my mom had made that day, it hurts. When friends tell me their mom had done something special for their birthdays, it hurts. When friends complain to me about their moms bugging them to do housework/chores, it hurts. I don't know why. I don't want to feel this way. It's embarrassing that I get affected by small things like these but everytime I hear stuff like that, my mind and body would suddenly feel heavy. It would feel like someone had stuck a skewer right through my chest and messed up my insides. It's sick. I'm not complaining here and I'm not blaming anyone else but myself for feeling this way. You would think I'm over all that shit, well, I thought I was too - I guess not. I tried and I try but I can't help but miss her. I can't help but wonder what life would be like if she was around. Sometimes I would pretend she's around, like she's just in the next room just so I wouldn't feel as bad. Reality always sinks in too soon though.
Ok apart from that I haven't been going to SPCA nowadays as often as I would like to. I'm going down tomorrow and I'm staying for the whole 6 hours. I've missed my babies.
OH! My cookies and cream cupcakes were a huge hit! Loges sounded orgasmic as she ate it. Gin was cute about it as always. Bav looked intoxicated after eating it. Jo loved it - and that's saying something! V came back for another one. I ate 3 myself. Oops. Hem hem. Recipe's definitely a keeper. I owe Izzy cupcakes. Been wondering if I should just bake these again since she didn't get to eat it or try a different recipe. I was thinking of strawberry cupcakes. Not the ones I used to make -the one that Ragini loves- but a different one. My current recipe tends to make cupcakes that are not as strawberry-ish as I would like them to be and they sorta get a sticky top. Lots of thinking to do. If you guys are wondering why I keep referring to the recipes as mine - it's because they are. I never use recipes as is. I like to experiment and tweak them just to see what I'll get.
Alrights, that's all babes and hunks! Till next time, Dance Baila-la-la-lo!
Love, Revethi :)
