this crazy thing called love.
Monday, June 22, 2009
My life suddenly looks like some kind of movie. It's enterataining to others but it takes a toll on me. But I can't complain can I? I asked for it in a way. Lol. So today was just like any other day. Went to work at 3pm today. I can't stand Ruma's "call whenever I want" atttitude. Still have to put up with it. The officer called again to check on me. I told him i'm still alive and kicking and there's nothing wrong with me. He didn't try to contact me so I'll be alright. Jo spoke to me just now. He says he can see i'm not going to slip out of this so easily. Good girls always like bad boys. So yeah, I may not get over this but it will just add on to the list of things I'll never be able to get over. I'm perfectly alright with not getting over some things in life. Afterall, we all have to move on in some way or another. All i'm trying to say is that it's okay to live with memories as long as you know what you really want in the end. What i really want in the end? I just want to be happy. I don't have to be rich, have a handsome man at my side 247 or a flippin career. Just to be contented will do.
Everyone's having problems. Seems like all the people around me are having a hard time with their relationships. Even those who think they have the perfect relationship are somehow unhappy and they know it. I'm not going to take a jibe at you guys or attempt to make you ponder but are your relationships that perfect? Really, is all you want stability? What about having fun? Afterall, a couple that laughs together, stays together. Once you notice the laughter fading you know the chemistry isn't as powerful. Then, everyone would be breaking up. Right? Wrong. I've seen couples who are still laughing together after 25years or being together. An example closer to my context would be Vinod and Theviya. Yeah sure they have their fights but they're always laughing and all. It makes you wonder how they do it after being together for 6 years. It's the true measure of happiness i tell you. When i was in hospital, my doctors said i had very strong laugh lines and asked me if i wanted them to alter it during the operation. I'm glad i said no. Because at least now i know that i've had my fair share of laughter. With those laughs i have with me memories, both good and bad, to take me through life.The good memories to remind me that life can get so good and the bad ones to remind me that no matter how bad it gets, it can always get worse. Lol. So to everyone who thinks that life's giving them hell, think again. If life gives you lemons, make lemonade. Make do with it because that's what living life is all about. You do with what you have, you get up when you fall and you cry to heal. To my dear girls, you know who you are. I want you to be the happiest you can be. At least, pretend to be happy because eventually you'll become what you tell yourself you are. I love you girls so much that i want you to brave the storm that heads your way. Whether it's love, family or just life, give it your best shot. Don't get worked up. Just live it. Sometimes, it's not so bad to be like me. Just sometimes. Keep telling yourself you're happy to be who you are and to have what you have. Afterall, what can be better than having Ragini in your lives you idiots? HAHA! Okay i'm going to go off before all my lovelies come after me for being such an idiot. Disregard whatever i have written above because in the end, what matters is that we love each other. We'll always have each others' backs. Always.
LoveLots,
Ragini (:
