An Angel.
Sunday, May 31, 2009
Hello everyone. The reason behind the title of this post is a song that Prasad got me hooked to. I don't normally like sappy tamil songs but Oru Devadhai is a really really good song. It's got this bollywood emo feel to it too. Haha. I've checked the blog everyday since my last post but i've never bothered to post. Reason? Murale and I have finally decided to acknowledge the little "suffocation" problem i'm having so we're on a break. I know things will work out eventually but i'm happy that he's decided to give me this break right now. 7 years is really no joke. It's impossible not to get tired of being in a relationship. It's almost like we're married and it sickens me. Not that i don't love him or anything. I just don't like commitment. I can't commit to anything. I value my freedom way too much. I liken myself to a volcano on the verge of erruption. No one knows when or if it's going to happen at all. So I don't want to be hurting him on our engagement day or something by chickening out or even worse, leaving a letter and running away on the wedding day. Which might happen. Hence the break. It's for him to tone down and me to breathe. It will go well.
So technically Arch was supposed to come back today but NO, she HAD to miss her flight! I don't understand you know. It's okay if one person got the timings all wrong but FIVE? Like hello, isn't there at least one responsible nut in the bunch? I was pretty angry that she was all calm and all. Maybe it's because she didn't feel like leaving at all. Haha. In any case, she's had a good 3 months and the people she's met have made things great for her. So I'll forgive her and let her enjoy her extra 2 days of Brisbane. Speaking of Australia, I got my University of Adelaide stuff settled today. I'm settled on the school. It's in the group of 8, I can choose from a wide wide choice of majors, i'm given flexibilty, everything can be accessed by foot, transport is free for the most of it, the on campus accommodation seems really safe and the school looks really nice. Lotsa other reasons but i'm going to list them out. But, the loan hasn't been settled. My dad signed my cousin's loan and now he's enjoying life at Uni Queensland but now my dad can't sign my bond which means i have no way to go until another immediate family member steps up. My mum can;t do it because she's under KK's nursing bond. She told me she'll find a way. By hook or by crook, she said. I told her that even if it doesn't pull through, i'll stay here and go private just to save the trouble. Which i would btw. I may not care about what people say but i'm willing to go through anything for the people i really love. So, yeah. What happens, will happen for a reason. Or so I believe.
You know, you can have everything in the world, but still be miserable inside for no reason. No reason at all.
Vee's going off to pre-U sem tommorrow! And she'll only be back on Friday. Supposed to try and get her an mp3 player so that she won't be too bored. I don't know where the Creative Zen is but it's going to her the moment i find it. I've arranged a watergun war session with her for the holidays! All the cousins! Vithya,Sharanya, Niranjan, Jayasudha, Dana, Hariharan, Maithilli and me! Rishkesh will probably be there too. So yeah. We haven't played that kinda thing in a long long time so we have to confirm on that one soon. Alright you'll, I've got a long day ahead so i better get going. I wanted to watch The Other Boleyn Girl on HBO at 3am but i don't think i'll last throughout no matter how much i love the movie. Tommorrow's our final fundraiser so I have to be up and running by 845am for that and then straight to work after that so, Have a good and lazy Sunday everyone. For those going to work, take a break and calm down. The rest of your idiots on holiday/studybreak, sleep in! Cheers!
LoveLots,
Ragini(:
