Revethi & Ragini
All I gotta say is
I just wanna have some fun
And I'll do it until I'm done
I'm telling you
I'm just a crazy kind of girl
I'll tell it to the world
I've just begun having my fun
Inside me there's something I found
I wanna shop around
I've just begun
Don't wanna settle down





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2nd post today. now that's smth u dont see everyday. well, like i said in my prev post, i baked this morn! and i have to say, they turned out pretty good hehe. brought some along as i made my way to Ragi's hse after my baking fiesta. she liked em! yayyness! still need to work on my deco skills tho. very amateur. anw watched The Haunting with Ragi on her tiny portable DVD player. it's a horror film (obviously) but i couldn help laughing at some parts lol. for those of u who have watched the movie: rmb the part when all the carved heads of children turned to face Eleanor and the part where a ghost kid climbed into bed beside her? well, if i was her, i would have ran outta the hse screaming. but Eleanor calmly smiles. she freaking SMILES. who does that?? anw i did a bit of shopping after i left her hse. bought 2 7/8 jean pants, a wallet, scrunchies, notebook and some packets of biscuits that look too good to eat to last me through my lunch-less SPCA days. (:
anw i found out that alot of ppl read this blog. better watch what i say... not.
and onto smth random now. look-alikes fascinate me. it's so cool! Navin looks like the indian version of Edward Cullen. too bad my sis doesn look like Bella. that'd be so cool! And this guy:



looks like Cristiano Ronaldo. his name is Sean Faris. cool eh?? :D
randomness: i'm in love with Priya's msn pm lol. "If He was a burger in McDonalds, I swear i'd order Mcgorgeous every freaking day of my life!" and yes, i would too (:
xoxo
revethi

music: Still Love You - Jay Sean ft Tiny

wellowello!
can i brag? i wanna brag. i'm going to brag hehe. this happened a couple of days ago. A group of students came to SPCA for a visit accompanied by Selina. Then Selina came to get me and ushered me to the students and she said, (:D) "Hi guys! This is Revethi, an excellent new volunteer. Feel free to ask blah blah blah" lol i sorta blanked out after that. i was kinda high to listen to her further hehe. woooo :D me likey.
ok sry if u thot i was being an idiot. just wanted to let it out. i'm gonna bake today! (: will post pics later. laters!
xoxo
revethi

music: Jai Ho - Slumdog Millionaire soundtrack

We totally sucked at fishing. The fish outsmarted us. We used McChicken bits as bait bytheway. Figured we'd tempt the fishes more that way. Guess what? The fish tugged at the bait and eventually ate it and escaped. When we pulled out the line, there was no fish and no bait. It didn't help that it was 37degrees again out at Punggol end. It was scorching and we couldn't even sit at the steps in peace. We met this guy who works at OBS Ubin as a security guard. He was nice and all. And he even wanted my book to read so that he could pass his time. I lent him the book but i generally know about his type. So I kept my conversation limited. Reka on the other hand, is an overly friendly person as everyone knows. She talks to anyone and everyone. I left her to take care of the lines while i took a stroll on the beach. By the time i came back, the two of them were having a deep conversation. Once he took the bumpboat to the island she told me she gave him her number because he said he wants to be able to talk to someone about the problems in his life and he thinks that she's a very nice girl and all. And from the way she said it, i knew she was just trying to be nice to him. Besides, Reka is someone who can never refuse anything. If she manages to refuse anything anyone says/asks, it means she really hates that person and Reka doesn't normally hate people. She can't. She's just like that. So after that guy left we got really bored. I think the weather made us feel terrible. Waited for one of Reka's friends to turn up and then we stayed for about 20mins more and left. Her friend wanted to stay a little longer but Reka and i especially, couldn't take the heat. Guess I'm still not tuned to function normally yet. My blood level is still low and i still get giddy from standing too long. We totally wore ourselves out even before we reached Punggol end. We searched the whole of Rivervale(Sengkang) for a fishing equipment shop that Reka once went to. We spent one hour doing that and it was a very scary experience because we seemed so lost. We bought ourselves a box of ice from 7/11 and that kept us concious througout cause the heat was terrible. I swear i started seeing things after 20 minutes of walking. So we eventually found this hardware shop that had everything at Rivervale Mall. Thank heavens the bus we were supposed to take passes by the mall. I don't i could have handled any more walking. I went to the SPCA after that. Promised Rev i'd go. Besides, i wanted to see some dogs for a few friends. Ended up playing with Slipper dog a lot. He's so adorable and weird. I like him because he likes slippers. How incredibly cool is that? Animals that have fetishes for certain object intrigue me. Met Rev's very sweet SPCA buddies. Gave Revv some very pretty shells i collected at the beach and then i left. I was seriously tempted to cab back but i decided against it cause i needed that money for the leggings i wanted to get.
I'm still tired from yesterday actually. Woke up this morning and my dad said we were going to Changi beach to let go of some prayer things into the sea. Picked Hariharan up from British council and went for Breakfast at Tanglin mall. I bought a Happy Meal this time cause that's all i can eat for now. And well, I'm going to tie my stomach a little because i'm very satisfied with my current body. Never thought i'd be able to beat the bulge but i did, unintentionally. So yeah after that we went to Changi, got some lunch and then came back. Met Murale to go get my leggings and contacts and then we came straight back home. The heat was terrible. My rubber bands snapped btw. The ones on my left. All gone. I'm going to get so much of scolding from my surgeon on Wednesday. Okay guys, i'm going off now. Enjoy the rest of your weekend. It's back to work and school on Monday. I'm going to continue readind and listening to my Bobby McFerrin Cd. He's strange. He's good. Nights everyone! (:
LoveLots,
Ragini

My waistline is smaller. I know I was complaining about losing weight, but i'm definately happy my hips have gone done. Honestly, i don't like my big hips much. Honest opinion. So yeah the hips are slightly smaller so my frame looks better and my tummy's gone cause i haven't been junking. Mainly cause i can't junk. So anyway, Murale and Revethi came over today! Murale brought me good food and Revethi brought me a Barbie doll. Together they brought a very very bored person a lot of fun and joy. Lol. We settled down to watch Twilight a while and no matter how many times i watch it Pattinson still makes me go gaga. Edward Cullen's character is a very likeable one. You should read the books to find out. So anyway Murale tried to BREAK my Barbie. Idiot of a boy. So we just slacked around. I turned off the air conditioning once the movie ended. Seemed pretty windy outside. When i opened the windows and balcony doors i realised it was this extremely, warm wind. Sat down on the sofa and watched Revv play with King and Murale and my brother playing PSP or whatever and i knocked out. Next thing i knew, Revv was taking unglam shots of me drooling. Thank you. You're a great friend. Really. Only great friends love the unglam you. Haha. So after i sent them off, i went to make tea for my dad who had to go back to work for an urgent meeting, i watered the plants and I brought King down for his walk/run. Met Shah and his new boxing buddy downstairs but i couldn's stay to chat cause i had plans with Reka after. Spoke to Vee after some time today. Same old same old. Revv and I will probably be heading down to IJC on Wednesday? Miss everyone and they keep insisting on seeing my face anyway so why not. Met Reka around 845? And we ended up going to Novena square to shop! Reka bought herself a few things from Cotton On and a top for me too! Amazingly pretty and totally on sale! Seriously, Cotton On has good quality clothes which are absolutely value for money. I know some of you think it's budget and all but who cares? They have pretty clothes that are cheap and lasting! So throughout Reka and i were gossiping and talking and everything and then we bumped into Swat Ling! She's working there with Zaneta and we all started talking and everything. We ended up being the last ones to leave the shop anyway. Reka got herself a pretty skirt that i swear only she can pull off. I'd look like an idiot in it. We've made plans for tomorrow! Reka's coming over after tuition at 1130 and then we'll be heading down to Punggol end to go FISHING! After that we'll be heading down to the SPCA around like, 330 to play with the pups a while and all. I'm actually supposed to help my uncle decide if a Husky there is suitable for his extremely big house. Should have informed Rev earlier but it's okay. Going to go there anyway. Hopefully nothing screws my day up tmr. I'm going out after a pretty long time. Alright guys, TOLD YOU Friday will be here in no time! Haha. It's here! You guys stay cool in school tomorrow and look forward to the weekend! Nalini's Birthday is tmr as well! I'm going to call her at 12am! Good night everyone!
LoveLots,
Ragini(:

Hello everyone! Today was pretty much a normal day except that i've been cooped up in the house reading Twilight. I don't care if i'm outdated. Haha. Anyway i brought King down for a walk and i met this not so conventional guy downstairs. He was practising his boxing skills. Seemed like a really good boxer actually. Built and wel, he looked really, different. Haha. Thick eyebrows. That's the part i noticed the most. So i just kept walking King and reading at the same time. Finally after King was done with his grazing i saw down at the playground to continue reading while he caught his breath. And guess who came and sat right in front of me? Boxer boy! Haha. And he started talking! So un-Singaporeanish! Haha. His name is Shah and he's a mix! I have a lot of hybrids in my area these days. So he starts talking and well i start replying and of course i sound dumb because i'm still trying to talk properly with my bands and wires and plates and what not. And then i explain to him that i had an op done. Plastic surgery actually. And then we just started talking about the area and stuff. He's 18 this year. Any takers? Haha. Okay i won't pimp the poor boy out. He's really sweet and pretty smart. He reads! I think guys who read are attractive. Mainly because most guys don't read? Okay i'm rattling. So that was my highlight of the day. The new boxer on the block. I think i'll be seeing more of him in time to come. So other than that, today was really boring. Viknesh(virtual) and i couldn't talk online today. He was heading out so i had no online buddy to gossip with. So i went over to my Grandma's in the sweltering heat just to get some good food and I came straight back and locked myself in with all the air conditioning switched on again. And then i settled to read. That's about it. Utterly boring. Oh and the Arena thing is apparently still on. MY SWELLING'S GOING DOWN MAJOR! So i might end up going on the eve of Labour day after all. Besides, I have to go with the flow and give in to these people once in a while. They love dancing with me! Mainly because i can get pretty wild and they're all pretty wild people themselves. Okay the heat's getting the better of me again. You guys have a good Thursday. Tomorrow, you all can rejoice because FRIDAY is next! And then the WEEKEND! Good night ya'll!
LoveLots,
Ragini(:

heya ppl!
i'm seriously and utterly in love with our blog (: and like Ragini mentioned, the theme is Mannequin and it's an in-the-face msg to all our haters hehe. i realised i forgot to bring over the counter (oops.) from the prev layout. i wanted to put in a new one but i figured Ragini and i know how many ppl read our blogs and we know u still visit it even if we haven posted for like a month. so, screw that.
i'm gonna go down to the SPCA later! i left the place quite early yesterday. was so bored! the ppl who were there, are not really the kinda ppl that'll keep me entertained. namely, Bee, Vik, Karen, Loges and Gin. ok Loges and Gin might keep me entertained but they're working so i wouldn wanna disturb them. -unlike a certain someone. hem hem.- and it made me realise how much i miss those lil buggers. want me to name them again? ok i will. namely, Jo, Bav, Zyy, Nicole, Hanis and Rebecca. and it has been only a few days since i last saw them? they're a huge part of why i fell in love with SPCA. buhttttttt! we're having a gathering this fri at SPCA! it's the last friday of the month so we're open till 830pm! AND i'm on duty! so come visit me ppl! (: i will send an sms invite to ppl who've been wanting to visit and those who have shown interests in adoption. hehe. yayyness. cant wait for friday.
randomness: am eating cereal now! :D and stevie is begging for it.
anw Rebecca will be there today! wooots! actually, i'm wondering if i should go visit Ragini with her Barbie lol. we'll see. so that's it for now. tc ppl!
xoxo
revethi

Hello everyone! I had a boring but good day today! Met Murale at Novena and i got my pudding FINALLY! Bought some snacks for the family and then he got himself a cheese burger and we walked home. I love hanging out with him and his band members even if they steal my food. Murale has been trying to convince me that my face doesn't look bad. He's trying his best. It's not working but it's really touching that he's trying. There's a NEW LEVI'S OUTLET AT NOVENA SQUARE! The clothes are sososososo gorgeous! I wanted everything. Murale said i'll have to wait until the 10th. Everyone knows i'm bad at waiting for things. I shall, try. I met someone else after that. Not going to say who just to play it safe but that person was go stunned after seeing my face. Haha. We sat down to talk like how we always used to and i brought the pudding i promised. Came back after that and now, i'm here.
So, Rev and I have changed our layout. She did the changing really. I just approved here and there. Haha. So now our blog is prettier. And, My face like a mannequin is the whole idea. Whatever people have to say about the blog, or us, our face is going to remain like a mannequin. FYI, "my face like a mannequin" is a way of saying my face is expressionless aka WE DON'T CARE(:
So tomorrow's going to be just as boring as today. Maybe more cause Murale won't be coming overrrrrr. Or maybe less because his sister Darsini lent me her entire precious Twilight collection! Besides, i have this new friend named Viknesh on MSN. He's online with me from the moment i get up until i have to head to bed or go off for some other reason. We may not know each other very well but i really feel like i know him. It's so weird but it's true! I don't know a lot about him but i know enough to feel comfortable talking to him and whining to him about being bored and talking about random topics. So yes, Thank you Viknesh for being a virtual wonder! (:
Alright guys, i'm going to go off and start on the Twilight series(Yeah i know i'm pretty outdated) that Darsini lent me. I like Wednesdays! Those of you from IJC share the same feelings i'm sure. It's fried food cum early dismissal day! Have a good day at school/work tomorrow you guys!
LoveLots,
Ragini(:



wello ppl! and welcome to our new, much prettier blog (:
xoxo
revethi

Hello everyone. I'm so bored and i have come here to blog about, nothing. There's nothing for me to blog about because i haven't been doing anything. And nothing interesting has happened to me. Yet. The weather's a killer again.
I was messaging a certain someone last night and i think i was very insensitive and blatant. Damn my rawness. Should have been more sensitive. But then again, i'm still learning to be friends with you again so i'm allowed to be brutally honest. Right? Right?? Lol.
The weather is making type things. There's pretty much nothing to do except maybe go and sleep until Murale calls and we meet in Novena for a cup of coffee and some chilling. Some chilling is what i really need especially since i'm still mentally debating with myself about applying to UNSW for a degree in political science or English. The education planner told me i can do a lot with that B in GP so it's a good option. I have a very well thought out plan actually. About what i'm going to do with that degree. Okay nuff of the uni talk. Heard way too much about it recently.
It's only Tuesday and it seems like the weekend is FAR AWAY. 29th April will be the day i take all the rubber bands off for good and i can start talking properly again without having people imitate and make fun of me. And it'll probably be the day i can start chewing food and not swallowing everything as a whole. I'm supposed to go to the Arena on that night! Or maybe the night after? Because now Murale's cousin wants to take the both of us on the eve of labour day. And well, i feel like making plans on the 8th of May. I think it deserves a day out. Maybe a car, some wine? Haha. This love is purely platonic. I'm boring myself. Who cares if i'm boring the the people reading this. Don't be creepy. Stop reading the blog to stalk us. Okay now i'm imagining things. Haha. My bed's calling out to me. "Switch on the Air conditioning baby, and we can get started here"she says. I have to go you guys. I hope your Tuesday's coming along fine.
LoveLots,
Ragini(:

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So it seems like a very strange way to start a post but i did it anyway. I'm strange. Pretty much. Okay so i woke up at 5 am this morning for a house prayer. It's actually a prayer we do once in like 2 or 3 years to help us have a good and fulfilling life ahead as well as to ward off evil eyes and ill-wishers. So my Grandma came over and everyone settled down with the iyers(priests) from our temple to start the ritual. Throughout the ritual, i was just thinking. And thinking. Where is our faith really? Are we blindly following something simply because we were born into it? I was born a Hindu. Meaning, my parents are Hindus and it automatically registers as my religion too. Don't get me wrong but i could have switched to any other religion halfway. Just that i didn't. Coming from St Marg's sec, i've had a christian centred environment for almost 11 years. I even went to church quite a bit. I still go to church actually. So do my folks. We're not staunch Hindus even though we follow our prayers and rituals and stuff. We're actually allowed to eat whatever we want. Choosing not to eat a COW is actually a personal choice. I said cow and not beef because i can't see something so gentle on a plate and degraded and all. Heh. So anyway, I chose to stay a hindu simply because, there are no rules. Believe in karma, don't hurt animals and don't indulge in the evil eye. That's actually about it. We're free to be who we want. We're actually the most carefree of all! What we choose to do is based solely on our own judgement and religion hardly plays a part in that decision. A friend asked me once, "Where are your morals? Doesn't your religion tell you homosexuality is wrong?!". I simply told her, my religion advises me to leave it be. People have their own rights and their own choices. It's up to them. All this because i refused to sign a petition against gay rights in Singapore. How childish. People should really stop using religion as an excuse for this and that. I don't believe God created us only to destroy us via our own misdeeds. This is literally using God's name in vain. In some cases, religion overrides humanity and people start acting like barbarians in the name of religion. Give it a break guys. Seriously. What the hell happened to world peace? Suddenly i feel the pain of the beauty pageant contestants. Year after year they repeat it on stage to a worldwide audience but no one ever takes them seriously. Oh and there's another this i hate. The word Idolising. Whoever gave you the rights to say i'm idolising? Oh wait, i am. But the way you say it, it's full of disrespect and mockery. Just for the record. We don't believe that there is a "different" god in every deity that we pray to. We believe in one divine power aka one God. We have different deities as forms of direction. We look to a certain deity for a certain something but we're really just looking to God. Everyone's always saying, Hinduism is over 5000years old and there's no way you can trace or argue with it. Which is always good. But there's still this problem, the whole you're "idolising" issue. Can't stand it. I'm just going to say one final thing. I believe in all religions. I believe in one God and only one. A being conceived as the perfect, omnipotent, omniscient originator and ruler of the universe, the principal object of faith and worship in monotheistic religions.- This suggests that there really is only one God. One God in different forms aka religions. So stop being so prissy and using religion as an excuse for anything and everything. I needed to rant. Really. Such a sensitive issue and i'm so blatant about it. Hope it doesn't get me into any trouble in this regime. Oops, did i go to far? (:
It's been 11 days since my op. I've been so bored. The weather's a killer. Been stuck at home watching movies, playing games and blogging the whole day. Thank god for the constant influx of visitors to keep my mind off blogging. I went out a few times. I'm not usually a self concious person but because of the way my face looks, i resent going out. At least for now. Besides, i don't know when i'm drooling and when i'm not which is just weird! And i keep feeling weak and dizzy and all so i'm still not ready to leave the house. Okay you guys, it's only 1pm now. I think i'm going to watch Valee on Vasantham now. Love that movie. You guys have a good Sunday ahead and i'll update laterrr!
LoveLots,
Ragini(:

wello everyone!
revv had a good day yest haha. even with the encounters with rude/bimbotic/irritating ppl. she first went for a picnic with Bav, Nic and Reb. they had to planned to meet at 8am @ AMK MRT station. good lil revv was there at 8.01am. then she sent out a mass text announcing that she had arrived. immediately after, she received a call from a very sleepy Bav. who even denied that she was sleeping.

Revv: hello
Bav: (in a slurry voice) hello... rev?....
Revv: ok, were u sleeping?
Bav: huh? no...
Revv: you just woke up rite?
Bav: yea, i'm so sorry. i'll be there asap.

lame eh? revv effectively waited for 45 min when Bav arrived at 8.46am. Nic arrived shortly after. we then had a short trek up AMK town park to find a suitable place for our picnic. we waited for Rebecca there as she lives like 5 min from the place?

Rebecca: will be there in 10 min!
(15 min later)
Rebecca: will be there in 5 min!
(10 min later, Rebecca finally arrived)

lol. guess she has a mild indian timing syndrome. horrible. and whilst we were talking a funny, convo popped up lol. this is extracted from Bav's blog.

Rev, Nicole, Rebecca and I had a picnic today at Ang Mo Kio Park in the morning. This is what happened:

Rev: I don't like guys whose hair is longer than mine.
oh and um. i passed Jo my phone cuz i was going to play with Faye for a while and she left for her drums wtih my phone lol. neither of us realised it so Bav, zyy and i went to meet her at J8 to get my phone back! and zyy got herself a badminton racket and Bav bought an iPod pouch hehe. was a good day. i'm gonna miss those ppl. (:

xoxo
revethi

37Degrees. That was the temperature this afternoon. It's seriously seriously seriously warm. There's some STUPID movie on central. It's a very bad combo. My nose is itchy but i can't scratch it cause there's no sensation. I want to take my bike license in secret. It's not a secret among my friends but my parents yeah. They'll kill me. They won't even let me. My dad keeps bringing up the topic of going back to racing in the JB stretch. Not that i don't want to but seriously, the thought of ending up in NUH again with a dented internal organ and a puncture in my leg. So yeah. Haha. Sounds so serious but i was really in pain for only like 2 days. Okay i was going to blog about something but the weather is screwing with my head. The gang came over today! Along with my relatives! All chatting away about Uni, the kids, the op etc etc. You know, indians talk a lot. It's hard to keep track of the conversation topics. Okay the heat, is getting unbearable. I'm going to the room and the lappie's not coming along so have a good Sunday you guys! I personally hate Sundays but yeah doesn't matter. Just have fun. Try to get some sleep and well preferbly with aircon unless you wanna bake or something. Nights!
LoveLots,
Ragini(:

It's day, 10! I'm in excellent spirits! Actually i've been in this oh so happy mood for the last two days! And i really wanted to blog about it but it kept slipping my mind. So, here is am. I went to town with my dad and sibs just now for breakfast. I'm getting pretty used to people not turning twice to look at me anymore. Not bragging or anything but i used to be able to do that. And then i realised, how fucking shallow the world really is. How fucking shallow I'VE been. Seriously. Looks, looks and looks. Actually i'm not that shallow. I've dated guys nobody considers hot. Even Satya said so when he was messaging me last night. Why do you always go for guys who look like crap, he asked. And i said, because guys who look like crap treat you like gold and guys who look like gold treat you like crap. Made sense? Just look at Seal and Heidi Klum. Them vs Brad Pitt and Angelina Jolie. Oh wait, Rumor has it that Brangelina are Overrrr. So yeah. Not that Seal's ugly or anything. He's actually pretty sexy in his own way. Heidi thinks he's the most beautiful person in the world. They have to be in love. Really. So yeah i figured there's no point looking good for anyone because in the end that's all they appreciate you for. Don't you think that's shallow? "Hi my friend thinks you're pretty can you pass him your number?"/ "Hi the guy in the _____ coloured Tshirt there wants your number". I'm sure MANY of you girls reading this blog(and yes, i know roughly how many) have had experiences like that. Honestly, i've given my number away once or twice. Sometimes i lie that i'm married and when i feel terribly bitchy, i say i don't speak tamil. Which totally puts them off cause they start thinking you're some arrogant idiot of a girl who thinks tamilans are too low class for her etc. Truth be told, Yes you are. You ARE too low class and when i grow up and marry a lawyer/doctor/teacher/businessman, you're going to be signed on in the army and looking to lead a mediocre, middleclass life. I'm middleclass yes, but always aspire to come out of that and achieve something greater. Sorry if i'm being too harsh but what are you guys looking at? Why can't you ask a girl for her number based on how intelligent she is and how witty she is and how well she can hold a conversation? Of course not. Because all the smart girls are always too smart and never too pretty. Of course not. I'm not being a "shallow person"-basher here or anything. I already admitted to loving the attention i got when i looked nice and all. But it's like this late realisation that hit me when i was out just now. I know my face isn't going to stay this way but it's TOTALLY a lesson learnt. Why should girls feel ugly just because boys don't think they're good enough simply because they're not pretty? Define beautiful dammit. Girls, i know you love the attention but don't take these fools seriously okay. Your life, has just begun. You're young, talented and beautiful in your own damn way. There's going to be someone more charming, more handsome, more intelligent and also more capable of taking care of you, coming along in a few years time. You don't want to have to tell him you dated a bunch of losers do you? But then again, it's not only guys who are that bad. Girls are just as shallow. I was just as shallow. Some girls don't see the good in guys. They look for blonde hair, Skinny bodies, Whether the guy dances in the case of most indian girls. What about the good guys? I admit to being shallow. Really. The moment i felt he wasn't good enough, i'd just let him go. And i didn't care how i hurt him. Talking to Pravin lately taught me a lot of things. I watched him go through shit. Really shit shit. The way he was pushed to the limit. Today is his 1 yr anniversary. I'm happy for him. He's gone through a lot and he deserves to move on. A part of whatever happened will be in his heart forever, yes, but it's going to do him good. He's always given me good advice and i don't feel good enough to give him any advice but really, he's such a good friend and when i watched him go through so much, i was pretty much hopeless. One year ago, he was hopelessly in love. Today, it's the girl's loss. Really. Sucha a gem of a person and for once i can say, a Man. I know you're reading this Pravin, I really love you for the person you are and i hope life goes great for you. Get a good job, stabilise yourself and the real women will come. You'll get your love. One that deserves the goodness you can give. (:

On to more significant things. I don't know if you guys heard about the death of the Master Warrant Officer Jaga yesterday. His military funeral is today. He was 45. He collapsed after a run. It's becoming more common these days. And more frightening. My dad's going for his funeral later. I may not know him personally but i think i can relate to his family's pain. Sometime last year, while my father was in Thailand on service, his heart expanded cause of over-exercising and he had to go for stenting. We were shocked, worried and devastated because my father is a very healthy person. He loves running and all kinds of outdoor activities. But it still happened. And this is a very real thing. All these military personel suddenly collapsing and everything, SAF should really launch an in depth investigation to find out how their men are training and personally look in to each and everyone's capability versus what they are really doing. Is it too much? Are they pushing themselves too far? The Singapore Armed Force personelaren't just soldiers. They're People. Individuals. Sons, Fathers, Brothers, Uncles and friends who have people who love them to death. If these men are just falling and having their lives cut by at least half then is it worth serving the country anymore? It's not the men to blame anymore SAF, It's you. Get it Done.
My dad is a Warrant officer. I have friends whose dads are WOs. Brothers who are WOs, Uncles who are WOs. I have nothing left to say to anyone about this anymore. Rest in peace MWO Jaga.

Okay guys, i'm going to go off now. I'll blog later at night. The weather's terrible today. It's a good day to swim and get a tan. Sadly i can't swim. So yeah it's not a good day. Haha okay i'm hallucinating from the heat. Bye!
LoveLots,
(:

I'm under A LOT of emotional pain. All because i can't eat. My lips swelled up a lot today. Have no idea why. I look like Lola from Shark Tale. I'm depressed and hungry. I'm going to sleep. Bye.
Ragini

Hello everyone, Today's day 5 after my op an my swelling's down a little more! My dearies are over right now playing carem with my family with the exception of Viknesh who just left to head back to camp. Went to Novena square with Murale, Reka, Viknesh and Hariharan just now to get some supplies for myself as well as some fresh air. There's like no space in the fridge because i've loaded it with liquids everyone got for me as well as the stuff i got myself. I keep shifting my jaw. It's been a habit for so long and i it hurts when i do it now cause my jaws are fixed with bands for now. Just heard that the dental centre called my mum and they said the bands won't be coming off so early. probably 3 weeks or so. I'm getting used to this despite the fact that i don't like the discomfort. And i can' t complain because everyone is being so so supportive. Even my grandma who wants to come over but i'm not letting her. Her legs are weak as it is. And she fusses over me. She took care of me for like 20 years of my life literally. I can't be making her do so much no matter how much she loves it.
So i watched a few movies today while waiting for Hariharan to come home. If there's anyone doing a lot for me, it's him. He does EVERYTHING. My sister's been sleeping outside cause she's afraid she'll break my face. No kidding, I'd rather her come back in actually. It's warm outside and i know that she's secretly afraid of sleeping alone(:
I keep running out of energy and breath. Which is one thing i'm worried about when i'm alone at home. Not being able to breathe. And my titanium plates freeze up when it's cold and they hurt. I think i can feel the exact locations of the six plates now. Hai. Anyways, until i get out my post-surgery woes stage this is all i can talk about people. I'm very very happy with all my friends. At least all the people i've Always cosidered friends. Messaging me everyday without fail despite being so busy with their own lives and all. And those who have been coming everyday so that i don't get bored. I'm happy to say that all those people i considered close and very important to me, have been checking up on me.
I have a lot of dinners and treats to prepare for when i can start eating! Practically everyone has offerred me a dinner/lunch date. Any takers for breakfast?
Okay guys i'm going to go off and play with the rest of them now. Don't let the Monday blues drag for the rest of the week. Tmr's Tuesday! It's the Tamil New Year! It's a new day and it's one day closer to Friday! So have a good day at school/ work /home tmr people!
LoveLots,
Ragini(:

Okay first and foremost, people, stop at 1 kid. It's way to expensive to raise a kid here. Besides, it would be better to have 1 than to face the music that comes with 2 or more. I think no matter how many kids people have, there's always going to be some kind of syndrome popping up. Either you have one kid or get yourself a few dogs. They love you limitlessly.
I had a good chat with Revv today about opportunities and options. She just realised that she's eligible for lotsa courses both in Aussie and Sg. Finally, the A level misery is beginning to fade. Everyone seems to have found something to do. Rekha's on her way to becoming a lawyer! How amazing is that! Anyway, i'm just glad everyone's getting on with life. It's suddenly all slowing down and everyone's better. Their minds are clear and their hearts are open. Which is great! Although this is only the beginning, it seems like a pretty good one to me. Hopefully, things stay this peaceful.
Okay this is really random but i'm having a pretty bad nosebleed right now and i have to go!
Ragini

The middle child syndrome

Hi guys! I'm finally back from that hell hole called SGH. Irritating nurses who didn't know wth they were doing or supposed to do for me. They completely made it seem normal when my nose was bleeding like i had a endless supply of blood in my body. Honestly other than a selected few everyone else sucked. I went into surgerat like 8 am on wednesday morning and i seriously did not know how to feel. My dd wasn't there on time. I was so scared that i'll end up going in without seeing anyone i love. You know, it's this general fear. So yeah. I had this Grey's Anatomy kinda Operating Theatre and it was full with staff. 7 doctors and even more nurses plus patient care assistants who lifted me here and there. And i remember some music being played as well. They actually have a boom box in there. My worst experience throughout was probably the General Anasthesia. I have never felt anything so, uncomfortable/ painful/ numbing etc. It was like sinking into nothingness if theres even such a thing. The moment they switched the gas on, i remember fighting to be awake. Which was of cours pointless. Trying to be heroic. Totally didn't work. So the moment the gas came on it was like my whole body was on fire. And it felt like a seizure. I was totally unprepared for it. Totally. Next thing i knew, i was stirring at the recovery centre with a damn fever and in a LOT of discomfort. After they brought me to the ward things got a little better. Saw all the people i wanted to. Oh well, that's the most exciting thing that's happened since i regained my conciousness. The rest of the journey, has yet to come. I'm still Ensuring* as Reka puts it. I'll be on it for a week or so until my appointment with my head surgeon. Hopefully the bands come off. To all those of you who came to see me, i can't tell you guys how much better you made me feel despite the fact that i can't talk. I actually managed to laugh! All the presents you got me, Thank you so so much. To Arch who's been checking up on me daily, I love you and i miss you. Hurry home! Murale and Reka, i could have never gotten through those 3 days without you two. To my family, forever grateful and i couldn't mean it more. Rev, Rekha, Prema, Nimala, Van and Shanthini, Thank you thank you thank you. Your presence adnd presents were a joy! I'll update tmr cause i gotta get back to self feeding now.
LoveLots,
Ragini(:

stevie has started humping ppl! woooo :D
xoxo
revethi

Hello, I'm going to SGH tomorrow. Tomorrow. I can't believe i'm falling sick at this point in time, God. If i am deemed unfit for General Anesthesia my op will be pushed back by two weeks. Last, last thing i need. Like i told you earlier, i'm planning to vlog about stuff. See how it goes. I'm recovered from my Saturday night tryst. Surprising seriously but hey, like i said, i never stay sad for too long. I'm about to get a new face. What could be more disturbing/difficult/exciting/anxious than that? Nothing. And i'm falling sick. Shit. Bye people.

I did something wrong. Something i shouldn't have done. But i couldn't help it. This heart didn't come with instructions. i think you might have seen this in one of my earlier posts, but i'm going to say it again. You only fall in love once. Last night i saw it happen. All over again. I know you're watching. I hope everything ends well for us. For you, and for me.
On to other things.

Hello everyone, the weekend has finally come to an end. I hope it went well for you guys. It's back to school and work for most of you tomorrow. Get plenty of rest today, you're going to need it. I really don't know what to post about actually. It's been boring. I've been preparing for my operation actually. It's on Wednesday but i'm getting admitted on Tuesday. Not really looking forward to it. I'm very blank about it actually. Just worried about all the drooling and not being able to eat! I'm planning and vlogging the whole experience. See if it can be done. Alright guys, Take care of yourselves and well, you'll be hearing me rant a lot more from now on.
LoveLots,
Ragini(:

Hey Everyone. I'm still here! Surprise surprise. I don't know what's happening here anymore but i don't intend to find out either. Frankly i'm too tired to. Been working and everything plus the SYF commitments! My babies got a Silver. It's really really good actually. The journey was a very tough one. I still remember the first time i saw the dance and how i thought it was no where near SYF standard and all. But on Tuesday, after watching the dance at its best, i realised these girls deserve getting a gold. They came so far! The first time i went back to see the entire group, i remember nhot all of them were cooperative and i even remember trying my level best not to appear bitchy towards them because my main goal was to push them to getting a gold. To me, it didn't matter if i got along with them or not. Just as long as they got that award. As the practices continued, I realised that i was wrong to think that way. Sounds cheesy? It's the truth. Each one of them taught me something new and i made a genuine effort to get along with them. Kudos to Darshni and Nanthini who i admit, were pretty loose with their steps at first but managed to pefect everything over a weekened. And there's Gowri, who kept going ahead of count at some parts but somehow, perfected the entire thing on stage! I'm not going to put down all the names but really, all of you girls improved tremendously. Whoever said that the chinese and malay dancers who didn't have any background etc etc were special because they managed to prove themselves and all, should just go to hell. Out of my 14 girls, 3 had prior dance experience. THREE. The other 11 dancers were first timers with no classical training whatsoever. To me, the judges had no right to value the non-indian dancers over the untrained indian dancers. They are on par and should be given equal if not more credit. Sri Devi and Girish proved that the Central judging for SYF was actually a very biased one and honestly, if they did not have biased views, every school would have been awarded with a Gold or Gold with honours don't you think? It's not a competition. It's a festival and the schools present their items and get graded with COP, Bronze, Silver, Gold and Gold with honours. It isn't a competition. You aren't competing with other schools. In my opinion, the judges are the ones pitting the schools against each other and even worse, judging the others based on the established ones with previous gold certs. The only true deserving GWH group last night was NJC. RJC didn't deserve theirs. I believe the judges were somewhat blinded when the girls fell on stage? They must have been surely. And AJC's Silver? Was it a personal attack? Because they certainly didn't deserve anything less than a gold. But then again, what i say here isn't going to make a difference. Hopefully things will change in time to come. Back to Innova. Of course the day wasn't complete without the usual drama. Thanabal the LIAR almost screwed the experience for the girls. Thank god the parents were on my side seriously. If anyone was scolding him more than me, it was them. Serves him right. Oh plus some of our dear girls were oggling over the boys. Serves them right when they didn't get what they wanted. I'm not talking about my dance babies btw. They had plenty of admirers. And after, i had a little malay girl run up to me and ask me to take down the number of a very charming little someone. Haha. Good looking and from what i saw, pretty funny. And he's like reading this now because he wants me to tell him when i'm done. Hello Prasad! (:
So yeah. I don't want to go into detail. Let's just say, I had a very good day. Ended it off with our project meeting at the cc. Love the girls and Shawn i swear. Haha. okay everyone. I'm going to go off and use my lappy right now and then dinner! see you lovelies at night.
LoveLots,
Ragini(: