TheNewYear.
Wednesday, December 31, 2008
Hey guys! Sorry for the delayed post! Went for Gaya's chalet yesterday. Honestly it was only fun until the guy came to yell at us when we were playing catching(young at heart you see). After that it got pretty boring. We retreated to the room to talk a little then everyone dozed off except for me. Decided not to sleep and it's not like i could anyway. I was actually waiting to get home seriously. The people weren't very accomodating. Hopefully, Gaya will have a pleasant night with not too much drinking. Unfortunately for her, the rest of us left because celebrating the coming of the new year was more meaningful than anything else. I would rather surround myself with them instead of drunk teenagers looking for some meaningless fun. No offense or anything but maybe some people just prefer more meaningful new year celebrations. I sneake out with Gaya around 5am to go to the beach. Picked some shells and watched the sunrise and all. After that Gaya just went back to sleep on the couch so i decided to go to the other more deserted part of the beach to pick shells by myself. I've never enjoyed anything so much in a long time. I was alone with the sun the sand and the sea for company. Picked pretty shells. I was so taken in by everything around me that i've decided to go to Pulau Ubin on Sunday with Him just to cycle around and get dirty! Hah! Anyway, Kaanthan brought us home from the chalet! It was such a coincidence that he called when we were about to leave and this time he had a car so everyone got a lift! Very kind of him to take 5 extra people from one stupid end of Singapore(Changi/Tampines) back home. All in all, It was fun with Gaya, Arch, Reka, Melanie and boyfriend as well as Salma even if it was for a short period of time. Gaya just messaged me and told me that she took my advice and went home. Good for her! Haha.
Looking back at 2008, i can only say that things happened very differently. Different. The decisions i made this year are different ones. Decisions i wouldn't normally have made, but i did anyway. This year i learned a few lessons in life, about who i can trust and who are should just shake off. I've learned that treating people like dirt will get you no where and somehow bring you more pain than you would have suffered earlier. At the same time, i realise that you should never regret the things you do. So no matter how bad my decisions have been, from boys to toys from clothes to shoes, i don't regret them. Everything happened for a reason this year and i;m glad everything happened that way. I know from now on, that i'm surrounded by the people i trust and love. Those who love me for me and not as a trophy or doll. I made some pretty bad decisions concerning my A levels. I think i am going to do badly. I can only hope and pray that i scrape through. And if i don't i've taken time to consider my other options as well as overseas ones. This year, I learned to be a more responsible daughter and sister. With my father in Thailand, i've become the unofficial in-charge and everything became my problem, fault etc. The initial difficulty of not being able to handle everything diffused and now i'm really the in-charge. Permissions, opinions, practically everything goes through me. This year i realised, how much more i love my family. How they all have thier imperfections but they make it work together. My family is the most beautiful thing to me by far. 2008 has also been a testing year for relationships in school. The gang fell apart but things slowly got better. Everyone's talking to everyone even if it's in the smallest way. Love wise, I realised when i was alone in the beach today that i'm actually very much in love. It hasn't changed for 7years. It never went away for whoever i was with, he was always much deeper herself. This year, I got an iPhone. Sure Apple's stylish and all but the phono is really weird! No forwardng messgaes etc etc. I also got another guitar this year in an attempt to rekindle my previous skills. So all in all, This year was a difficult one indeed.
I'm not going to blog about the resolutions and all. That'll come after midnight because i'm dozing off right . Till then, good night everyone!
LotsaLurveeee,
Ragini(:
